It's a little hard to explain.

[ He sounds distant - and his gaze is too, as if he can somehow pluck an explanation fully formed out of the air and save himself the time. Then he sighs. ]

I was selected when I was a little younger. I didn't have anything at the time. No money, no family, not much of a chance - but I was told that I could earn something for myself. That I could make enough money to live as comfortably as I needed. All I had to do was a job. And as it turns out it was a very... different kind of job.

[ His smile is brittle. ]

I became Elan Ceres. Because that isn't my real name. I wasn't born as Elan. I was supposed to be a double for the real one. Someone to go places for him, to fill in, to potentially take a hit if it came down to it. They even changed my face.

[ He waves his hand with another of those laughs as he leans back in his chair. He's affecting a nonchalant attitude, but he fully expects Hiyori to find him something of a freak by now. ]

That's the short version, anyway. I could get into it, but... [ He shrugs. ]

There's a lot that would need even more explaining.