[Yes. Well. It's probably for the best that Hiyori never goes back to look at Jun's threads on that Network post for other reasons, too...
If he gets the urge to reread a conversation, though, it's going to be this one from last month. The one where Jun first said all sorts of wonderful things to him, from "My mind races with all the things I wanna do by your side" to "My heart is just filled with you." The one where he said that his words during SS weren't just about singing. The one where he promised to stay by him forever, just as he's promising him again now.
All of that helped prepare him for him Jun's in-person confession, making sure it didn't reduce him to a blushing mess (that would've been embarrassing). But it still feels almost unreal to have Jun nuzzling him sort of like a cat and promising not to let go. It makes his heart vibrate with affection.
But it also soothes his anxieties. Especially what Jun says at the end. He spends much of his time worried about Jun, but he's also been worried about the impact this place might have on him. What if when he leaves, he can't go back to being "the idol called Hiyori Tomoe"? What if he's become too jaded, too cynical, too dirty? What if his shine is gone and he's no longer the dazzling existence his fans love? These worries would be haunting him a lot more if Jun wasn't there, but thanks to his partner's presence, they're barely present most of the time.
Jun keeps him grounded. He knows that. And he'll just have to keep doing the same for Jun.]
Mm.
[He hums softly, leaning his nose against Jun's.]
I'm glad you can say that, despite everything that's happened. ... I don't like that Jun-kun got taken and put in a place like this, but I'm glad to have you here with me.
[A pause, and then he continues:]
After we got here, me and Leo-kun had a conversation about staying "ourselves" in this place. He pointed out that some of the longer-term guests seem like they've been brainwashed. And he said that if he ever loses interest in composing, that'll be a sign he's no longer himself.
[He keeps Jun's hand in a squeeze. It's sort of a depressing topic, but he figures it's relevant.]
I guess in my case, it'd be something like "if I'm not looking out for Jun-kun, or I stop wanting Jun-kun as my partner, then that's a sign I'm no longer myself." That's how important an existence you've become to me. But I do have faith those things won't ever happen. The House can throw all manner of distractions at us, but they can't take away our feelings for each other.
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If he gets the urge to reread a conversation, though, it's going to be this one from last month. The one where Jun first said all sorts of wonderful things to him, from "My mind races with all the things I wanna do by your side" to "My heart is just filled with you." The one where he said that his words during SS weren't just about singing. The one where he promised to stay by him forever, just as he's promising him again now.
All of that helped prepare him for him Jun's in-person confession, making sure it didn't reduce him to a blushing mess (that would've been embarrassing). But it still feels almost unreal to have Jun nuzzling him sort of like a cat and promising not to let go. It makes his heart vibrate with affection.
But it also soothes his anxieties. Especially what Jun says at the end. He spends much of his time worried about Jun, but he's also been worried about the impact this place might have on him. What if when he leaves, he can't go back to being "the idol called Hiyori Tomoe"? What if he's become too jaded, too cynical, too dirty? What if his shine is gone and he's no longer the dazzling existence his fans love? These worries would be haunting him a lot more if Jun wasn't there, but thanks to his partner's presence, they're barely present most of the time.
Jun keeps him grounded. He knows that. And he'll just have to keep doing the same for Jun.]
Mm.
[He hums softly, leaning his nose against Jun's.]
I'm glad you can say that, despite everything that's happened. ... I don't like that Jun-kun got taken and put in a place like this, but I'm glad to have you here with me.
[A pause, and then he continues:]
After we got here, me and Leo-kun had a conversation about staying "ourselves" in this place. He pointed out that some of the longer-term guests seem like they've been brainwashed. And he said that if he ever loses interest in composing, that'll be a sign he's no longer himself.
[He keeps Jun's hand in a squeeze. It's sort of a depressing topic, but he figures it's relevant.]
I guess in my case, it'd be something like "if I'm not looking out for Jun-kun, or I stop wanting Jun-kun as my partner, then that's a sign I'm no longer myself." That's how important an existence you've become to me. But I do have faith those things won't ever happen. The House can throw all manner of distractions at us, but they can't take away our feelings for each other.