At first he thought it was, because it wasn't a red string. The resort gave them red strings leading to other people, which of course was bogus. (Even if those strings did lead them to deepen their bonds with the people they did connect to.) And it gave Hiyori a second gold string, which was how he ended up shivering and whimpering in pain from phantom ailments that still haven't subsided. But the text on the screen regarding their gold string hadn't been all wrong, at least not from Hiyori's end. He may not believe in "destiny" or "soulmates" exactly, but Jun is his other half. And to find someone who will "take in every part of him" is a blessed thing. That might not be something he only shares with Jun. His relationship with Nagisa is like that, too: a bond based on mutual, unconditional acceptance. But when it comes to "having" and "being had," who else does he want to "have" more than Jun?
Jun, whom he wants to possess every part of. Jun, whom he's always confidently declared belongs to him. There's a reason Hiyori was so delighted to put a collar around his neck. But Jun wearing that collar wasn't enough to sever their string, and it's now that Hiyori realizes why that might have been: Jun might've given himself to him, but he hasn't given himself fully to Jun in return yet. Has he?
Maybe it's stupid of him to take any of this seriously. It is just another game. But...]
It's not just about the string.
[That, Hiyori can say with certainty. Looking Jun in the eye, he speaks with plenty of confidence.]
With or without this game going on, I'd still want us to match. But it isn't just about us matching. We didn't just talk about any rings, but about "promise rings." And there's a lot I want to promise Jun-kun.
[He squeezes Jun's hand, taking a breath before he launches into this next bit.]
For example, that I won't turn into one of those brainwashed career residents. That I'll never lose sight of what's important, and always stay true to my dazzling self. That I'll protect you from turning into a stone statue, and from all the horrors that go on in the basement. That we'll go home, reunite with Mary and Nagisa-kun and Ibara, and sit around a table eating delicious quiche together. That we'll perform the song we practiced for SS. And then, once all of that's done, that Jun-kun can have my future afterwards.
[He pauses, then, still squeezing Jun's hand, still looking Jun straight in the eye, hoping to convey that everything he said came straight from his heart. His expression is serious.
Then, finally, it relaxes, lips forming a smile again, soft and exhilarated.]
I don't know what nonsense Hearts has in mind. But I think that's what "giving oneself" means, at least for me. And I don't need to do it with a ring, but I like shopping and jewelry, so why not? Jun-kun said he also wanted something that matches, so that sounds like the best idea to me! ♪
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At first he thought it was, because it wasn't a red string. The resort gave them red strings leading to other people, which of course was bogus. (Even if those strings did lead them to deepen their bonds with the people they did connect to.) And it gave Hiyori a second gold string, which was how he ended up shivering and whimpering in pain from phantom ailments that still haven't subsided. But the text on the screen regarding their gold string hadn't been all wrong, at least not from Hiyori's end. He may not believe in "destiny" or "soulmates" exactly, but Jun is his other half. And to find someone who will "take in every part of him" is a blessed thing. That might not be something he only shares with Jun. His relationship with Nagisa is like that, too: a bond based on mutual, unconditional acceptance. But when it comes to "having" and "being had," who else does he want to "have" more than Jun?
Jun, whom he wants to possess every part of. Jun, whom he's always confidently declared belongs to him. There's a reason Hiyori was so delighted to put a collar around his neck. But Jun wearing that collar wasn't enough to sever their string, and it's now that Hiyori realizes why that might have been: Jun might've given himself to him, but he hasn't given himself fully to Jun in return yet. Has he?
Maybe it's stupid of him to take any of this seriously. It is just another game. But...]
It's not just about the string.
[That, Hiyori can say with certainty. Looking Jun in the eye, he speaks with plenty of confidence.]
With or without this game going on, I'd still want us to match. But it isn't just about us matching. We didn't just talk about any rings, but about "promise rings." And there's a lot I want to promise Jun-kun.
[He squeezes Jun's hand, taking a breath before he launches into this next bit.]
For example, that I won't turn into one of those brainwashed career residents. That I'll never lose sight of what's important, and always stay true to my dazzling self. That I'll protect you from turning into a stone statue, and from all the horrors that go on in the basement. That we'll go home, reunite with Mary and Nagisa-kun and Ibara, and sit around a table eating delicious quiche together. That we'll perform the song we practiced for SS. And then, once all of that's done, that Jun-kun can have my future afterwards.
[He pauses, then, still squeezing Jun's hand, still looking Jun straight in the eye, hoping to convey that everything he said came straight from his heart. His expression is serious.
Then, finally, it relaxes, lips forming a smile again, soft and exhilarated.]
I don't know what nonsense Hearts has in mind. But I think that's what "giving oneself" means, at least for me. And I don't need to do it with a ring, but I like shopping and jewelry, so why not? Jun-kun said he also wanted something that matches, so that sounds like the best idea to me! ♪