[ Hopefully she wasn't watching them like a hawk! (She could be bored and people-watch in her establishment. Who knows at this point!)
Hiyori usually does, which Jun's made fun of numerous times before. But this time he took a little longer to put on the suit. He's still in disbelief this suit was made specifically for him, where it fits snugly and comfortably against his muscles without feeling too tight. He can even stretch his arm out without the fabric straining. But what's more, is how Hiyori thinks he'll look in the suit.
For now, he'll leave it unbuttoned, wanting to let his muscles shine. He hopes it looks nice, and Hiyori likes the way he looks. He half-grins, allowing Hiyori to look and take in the suit however he likes, taking in the returning smile. ]
I'm learning, Ohii-san! Can't keep giving the same compliments, 'cause I gotta keep ya on your toes âȘ
[ And he needs to step it up, because when he looks at Hiyori, especially like this and truly thinks about it... Well, he does look beautiful and the colour does bring out his eyes! Maybe the suit's power doesn't affect Jun because he's already in love and completely captivated by the person wearing it. ]
Just "pretty good"? Yeah, I think you've got that right 'bout our charm! Our fans would probably wanna see us in 'em. Long as you think I still look "classy," I won't feel bad 'bout wearing the suit out âȘ And yep, it fits pretty snug! I dunno how she knew our measurements, but she seriously got it spot on âȘ
[ Which means Hiyori's assumption is correct! Though Jun was sceptical, Hiyori's extensive knowledge from looks alone surprised him. The fact he could discern so much from looks alone leaves him feeling impressed. ]
Mhm, let's go! I wanna see how I look and I wanna see what we look like together âȘ Well, you're the one thinkin' it's a couples outfit, so... I dunno what a couples outfit looks like, Ohii-san.
[ But perhaps when they're side-to-side, looking at one another in the mirror, it'll all become clear. He flattens out the lapel, nodding towards the bathroom.
He tugs on Hiyori's hand, pulling them both into the bathroom and staring into the mirror. The flowers do seem to match, and the colours complement each other, but Jun, not being as fashion-savvy as Hiyori, is still a bit puzzled. ]
... so, what d'you think? I'd say we complement one another pretty well âȘ
Excellent thinking! âȘ I'll look forward to hearing more creative compliments from Jun-kun in the future! And if you ever need suggestions, you can always ask me for ideas, since I'm always up to the task of praising myself! âȘ
[Is that something to brag about...? And wouldn't that defeat the whole idea of creativity? Well, whatever.
In response to the next thing, he chirps,]
Yes, "pretty good!" Don't tell me Jun-kun was itching to be called "handsome" or something like that?
[He smirks. Then he adds,]
But if that's what you want, then I guess I can call you that. Since Jun-kun does look handsome.
[And beautiful, too, actually. Hiyori's always thought him to be beautiful. But that's somehow more embarrassing than calling him handsome, and he has a feeling Jun would look at him funny if he did. Then again, his reaction might be funny.
But back to the suits. Jun confirms with his next word that the suit is a perfect fit, which means Hiyori's hunch was correct. And that pleases him, somehow, in ways he doesn't quite know how to express in words at first.
That pleasure only intensifies when they head into the bathroom, standing shoulder-to-shoulder in fromt of the mirror. Like this, he can appreciate the full effect of their "couple's outfit." A quiet warmth spreads inside his chest, and all he says at first is,]
Of course we do. We're Eve!
[But that's not all. Is it?
As Eve and as Eden, they've worn complimentary outfits before. Identical ones, ones with slightly changed designs, and ones that reflect their respective image colors. Wearing matching clothes is nothing new, in other words. So why does seeing them like this in the mirror tug at his heartstrings now? It could just be that they're dating now and they weren't at home, but it also feels like it's more than that. In a way, the present from Jin Mingming feels like validation. This whole time he's been worried that their relationship is a liability here, that the House will punish them or tear them apart. It's keeping them from playing the game, after all, which is what they've been brought here for. Jin Mingming's own words had scared him to the point of nightmares.
And yet she did this for him. And it feels like their relationshipâtheir love for each otherâhas been recognized: not as something that needs to be broken up, but as something worth paying tribute to. Something beautiful.
Perhaps he's reading too much into it, but that's what it feels like.
The look in his eyes softens, and he finds his fingers brushing Jun's.]
... it's nice, isn't it?
[He graps his hand lightly and squeezes.]
I see why you wanted to pick out matching jewelry.
[ It would defeat the whole idea of creativity, but he rolls his eyes with a smile. Besides, giving away what he's going to say in advance makes the other compliments moot. And with that in mind, he doesn't need any help! He'll figure it out, come up with new compliments and cherish Hiyori even more.
Even with Hiyori bragging, no one needs to hear him praising himself today. ]
Well, I thought you'd say something else. It's not like I'm fishing for compliments, I'm just saying... Iâd rather not be called that if you donât really mean it, Ohii-san. But, thanks âȘ
[ But Hiyori's hunch is right, he expected something other than "pretty good." And maybe, deep down, he hoped he might be called handsome, or anything else. He still doesn't know that Hiyori thought he was beautiful, but would he get a big head about it? Well, probably! He'd probably think Hiyori bumped his head again or drank something strange. Either way, he'll take the handsome compliment and smile.
Is it just because they're Eve? Or is it something else? Sure, they've worn numerous matching outfits before. It's just how life is as an idol! But this feels different, having them stand shoulder-to-shoulder, bathroom mirror showing off both of their matching suits from top to tail. Something feels right, despite Jun's scepticism from earlier, he realises now Jin did mean to tailor him a suit. Watching through the mirror his heart feels full, knowing even when they haven't been shouting their relationship to the rooftops, it's still known to someone here and doesn't seem too much of a liability.
It is something beautiful, their relationship, and their love for each other. Jun never knew love could feel this intense, and it's something he never wants to squander. Despite where it's blossomed and bloomed, his eyes soften feeling Hiyori's fingers brush against his. ]
Yeah, it's nice, really nice.
[ He breathes out, giving the hand in his a squeeze back. ]
Huh, what didja mean by that?
[ Genuinely curious, Jun wonders why Hiyori would have that particular thought about them wearing matching suits now. He hadn't realised they'd moved past that point, even though they had discussed it extensively before.
... Or to the point where they'd come to a mutual understanding. ]
["Something else," huh? His eyes spark with curiousity as he wonders what that might be. Despite his obnoxious personality, he does want to tell Jun the things he wants to hear. Jun deserves to have a partner who makes him feel loved. It's just hard to find a middle ground sometimes between holding back enough not to embarrass himself and holding back too much.
But maybe, just maybe, he doesn't need to hold back at all. Not all the time, anyway. Maybe he can live with a little embarrassment.
And he's not embarrassed at all now as he opens his mouth and confirms:]
Well, I do mean it.
[There's no teasing tone, no argument; it's not a sassy retort. He just smiles gently, hoping his sincerity will shine through.
Jun does look handsome in the suit; they both do. That much is abundantly clear from looking at themselves in the mirror. They make an attractive couple, which he knows is what the suits are for: not a unit outfit (though they could be worn as such), but a couple's outfit. He and Jun were recognized as lovers. Not just cards.
He thinks about that and about the gold string that hasn't come off yet, even though he's done away with all his other strings at this point. He thinks about the suite they share together, the bird who's sleeping in her nest, the life they've built here. All of it as a pair, as "partners." Not alone.
He looks at them in the mirror, his fingers twined together with Jun's. His are still colder than their usual temperature. Timeline-wise, the connection with Esikko should still be ongoing, which I failed to realize when I started this thread. At least Weiss helped him find a way to cope with it. A reminder that things are less-than-ideal. Nothing is ideal; they're still being toyed with at every opportunity, still in danger of disappearing. Yet it wouldn't be the first time they've survived a corrupt environment. And not just survived, but thrived... isn't that right?
For the first time since Vil told him about the statues, he feels something like hope swell in his chest.
He turns to look at Jun properly.]
I don't quite know how to explain. But doesn't it sort of feel like our love is being recognized? Of course I don't need anyone's approval to love Jun-kun. And we don't need matching outfits, matching rings, or anything like that, either. But...
[He squeezes Jun's hand, his eyes narrowing in thought.]
It feels good to have something like that anyway, doesn't it? It's another way to show where our hearts are, no matter how much they say that sort of thing isn't done here. It feels almost like we're being told not to give up. And I wonder...
[He trails off.
Jin Mingming said the goal of this place, more or less, was to get everyone to be intimate with people they never would've met otherwise. People from different worlds. In doing so, this changes their fate. She said she didn't think being intimate with someone from their homeworld would promote longevity within the resort. But she also gave them this gift. Was it a consolation prize, because she knew her words upset him? Or was it an attempt to say something else?]
[ He wishes it were easier to come out and say what sort of compliments youâd like to receive, but Junâs not that sort of person. With the confirmation he does look handsome, his chest bursts with warmth, having Hiyori say something and say he does mean it, makes Jun the most happiest person in the world. Wearing a suit isnât usually his style! But as he looks back in the mirror, glancing between himself and Hiyori; something is abundantly clear! They do make an attractive couple, and Junâs so happy, having what it seems like their love being recognised.
Hiyori articulates it in words better than Jun could, which is exactly what heâs been thinking. Here they are, in a shitty casino, being forced here against their will⊠but all throughout it all theyâve had one another. Itâs the most comforting feeling waking up each morning seeing Hiyoriâs beautiful sleeping face. Itâs a comfort to Jun more than anything, more than Hiyori knows. ]
Itâs like youâre reading my mind, Ohii-san.
[ Which means theyâre on the same page! But being partners they usually are, arenât they? Besides his heart doing a little flip, his thumb presses into Hiyoriâs palm, rubbing circles. Really, Jun isnât quite sure how to explain it either, but itâs exactly how he feels. Why else would someone in the resort go to the effort? ]
Iâm not the sorta person who gets sappy âbout it, but it feels really good.
[ More than really good, but if he continues, heâd only be rehashing everything Hiyoriâs already said. Though, itâs true! They donât need anyoneâs permission to love one another, or matching anything. Itâs still nice to have, isnât it? Maybe love made Jun soft, but it goes to show even he can experience a feeling that intensely and still be the same person.
What Hiyoriâs proposing only makes sense. Itâs Junâs last string, too, but what else makes sense is how theyâre still connected to one another. It may not be the red string, but who needs it? The House just gave them the wrong string, thatâs all.
Itâs not exactly what he had planned for Hiyoriâs birthday, itâs definitely different. But the idea of having this, on Hiyoriâs birthday, sounds nice. But one thing! ]
The thing âbout that⊠I donât wanna get âem for the strings sake. Just for fun, but if youâre thinking itâll count⊠Guess it depends? Whatâs âgiving ourselvesâ really mean, anyway? Weâve done all that, and whoeverâs deciding what counts is probably having a good time watching us fumble it.
At first he thought it was, because it wasn't a red string. The resort gave them red strings leading to other people, which of course was bogus. (Even if those strings did lead them to deepen their bonds with the people they did connect to.) And it gave Hiyori a second gold string, which was how he ended up shivering and whimpering in pain from phantom ailments that still haven't subsided. But the text on the screen regarding their gold string hadn't been all wrong, at least not from Hiyori's end. He may not believe in "destiny" or "soulmates" exactly, but Jun is his other half. And to find someone who will "take in every part of him" is a blessed thing. That might not be something he only shares with Jun. His relationship with Nagisa is like that, too: a bond based on mutual, unconditional acceptance. But when it comes to "having" and "being had," who else does he want to "have" more than Jun?
Jun, whom he wants to possess every part of. Jun, whom he's always confidently declared belongs to him. There's a reason Hiyori was so delighted to put a collar around his neck. But Jun wearing that collar wasn't enough to sever their string, and it's now that Hiyori realizes why that might have been: Jun might've given himself to him, but he hasn't given himself fully to Jun in return yet. Has he?
Maybe it's stupid of him to take any of this seriously. It is just another game. But...]
It's not just about the string.
[That, Hiyori can say with certainty. Looking Jun in the eye, he speaks with plenty of confidence.]
With or without this game going on, I'd still want us to match. But it isn't just about us matching. We didn't just talk about any rings, but about "promise rings." And there's a lot I want to promise Jun-kun.
[He squeezes Jun's hand, taking a breath before he launches into this next bit.]
For example, that I won't turn into one of those brainwashed career residents. That I'll never lose sight of what's important, and always stay true to my dazzling self. That I'll protect you from turning into a stone statue, and from all the horrors that go on in the basement. That we'll go home, reunite with Mary and Nagisa-kun and Ibara, and sit around a table eating delicious quiche together. That we'll perform the song we practiced for SS. And then, once all of that's done, that Jun-kun can have my future afterwards.
[He pauses, then, still squeezing Jun's hand, still looking Jun straight in the eye, hoping to convey that everything he said came straight from his heart. His expression is serious.
Then, finally, it relaxes, lips forming a smile again, soft and exhilarated.]
I don't know what nonsense Hearts has in mind. But I think that's what "giving oneself" means, at least for me. And I don't need to do it with a ring, but I like shopping and jewelry, so why not? Jun-kun said he also wanted something that matches, so that sounds like the best idea to me! âȘ
Jun has realised now they don't need a silly, little red string to prove their love. He understands connections can form through the string, and it doesn't always have to be romantic. Besides, Jun doesn't have deep, romantic feelings for anyone else! After being afraid of intimacy for so long, finally he's grown comfortable enough for this. Sadly, Jun doesn't share this intense connection with anyone else, as his bond with Ibara isn't at the same level. Ultimately, there's no one else Jun would allow to have "all of him" the way Hiyori does.
It makes sense, doesn't it? If he has to wait his entire life to possess Hiyori, he just might. Honestly, it's not as if the string bothers him despite giving himself to his partner.
His head tilts, squeezing the hand in his tighter. ]
I justâhad to be sure, y'know? 'Cause I know we kinda did, but I still don't wanna get ahead of myself, Ohii-san.
[ He knows there's nothing to be afraid of, and he shouldn't when Hiyori's been nothing but accepting. All in all, Jun should know better. ]
Good thing Iâm not gonna let you become some brainwashed resident. And remember, we promised weâd stick together! Weâre getting outta here and head back to Mary, Nagi-senpai, and Ibara. Maybe we can still perform in SS? Who knows, maybe time's stopped back home, and weâll return to win! But I want that, 'cause you already have mine, and I'd be lying if I said I didn't.
[ His heart feels full hearing all of this, knowing Hiyori truly means it. They've already spoken about much of what they'd like to do back home, even before they were together! But he'd be lying to say he didn't want all of Hiyori's future, just as he's giving him.
When Hiyori turns serious, he knows it's real. Sure, Ohii-san is fussy, and needy and demands all of his attention, but as he's said before...! Jun could have tapped out at any time. His expression softens, a warm, fond smile spreading across his lips as he gazes at Hiyori filled with affection. ]
Don't really care what Hearts has in mind, Ohii-san. What we do shouldn't matter to 'em! But I get it, 'sides knowing shopping is your favourite hobby! And for your birthday, I wanted to pick out something nice, but guess itâs not really a surprise anymore, huh~?
[ It sounds like the "best idea" to him, too. Not because of the game, nothing ever has to do with the games this place throws at them. Jun wants to do it because he loves Hiyori, and wants to continue giving his best self every day. ]
I've got another lil' surprise for you, so you'd better be ready for it! âȘ
[The fact Jun wants to give his future to himâthat he wants them to spend their lives togetherâmakes him feel horribly glad. It drives out all the dark thoughts swirling around in his head, dulls the pain in his chest and melts away the cold. Silly Jun-kun; he really should have known better.
It makes Hiyori feel so good, in fact, that he's willing to consider that idea that time is stopped back home, even though it sounds preposterous. Can the House's magic really influence their world? Does this whole place exist outside of time somehow, even though there are birthday celebrations and a calendar and seasonal activities like beach parties? He doesn't know, but that would be best. And it'd make things simplest for when they return.
Which they will, one day, hand in hand. He'll make sure it happens somehow.]
Mm~âȘ Maybe so. One way or another, I have faith that we'll win someday.
[A part of him wonders if that could be part of their wish: not just to go back home, but to go back to the time they were pulled from. If the House really does grant wishes. And if they completed their 52 boards. He hasn't really spent much time thinking about what-ifs like that, because he doesn't want to delude himself, and he figured that was an option that was closed to them, anyway. But given that loophole they now know about...
Well. Now isn't the time to talk about that.
Jun says he picked something out for himâthat he has another gift for him besides the breakfast in bed. Which isn't a huge surprise, but Hiyori had gotten so wrapped up in their conversation that he forgot about gift-giving. He beams at Jun.]
Jun-kun has another gift he's been waiting to unveil, huh? Excellent! Let'sâ
[see it.
But he stops before he can finish, his eyes widening as he clues into Jun's meaning. Is he saying he already bought them?
Hiyori's tempted to just ask, but after a moment's pause, he just nods, feeling uncharacteristically shy all of a sudden, his heart lodged somewhere in his throat.]
... on second thought, since Jun-kun wants to surprise me, I'll close my eyes.
[And that he does, standing there expectantly with his eyes shut.]
[ Hiyori never has to worry about their future; he truly means it. It's not just a comforting statement for Hiyori or himself. When he looks at Hiyori and reflects on all they've been through, there's no one else he wants to share his future with. Even back home, he had been ready to commit to Eve and Eden. What Jun was uncertain about years ago, now completely certain of.
"I have faith we'll win someday." Hearing these words make Jun feel a comforting warmth, as if everything will be alright once they return home. Regardless of the circumstances, their fans would still want them to win SS, even if they knew about their time in a sex casino. Jun wonders if time has stopped back home, or if he's only avoiding the thought of how Ibara and Nagi-senpai are managing without them. Eden would likely need to go on hiatus, something he's sure Hiyori wouldn't want to think too deeply about. Perhaps Ibara and Nagisa are performing as Adam, keeping the excitement alive for Eden and, by extension, Eve, ensuring that fans still talk about them. ]
Right, you'd better keep your eyes closed âȘ
[ It's nothing extravagant, especially in a place where you can buy almost anything. But it's something Jun made himselfâsimple yet heartfelt. He steps away briefly, retrieving the gift from its hidden spot in one of their drawers. With a warm smile, he hands the package to Hiyori. Though Hiyori can't see the fondness in Jun's eyes right now, heâll notice it once he opens the gift. ]
Made it myself, so dunno if it's good... But you can open 'em now!
[ He'll move to place the gift in Hiyori's hands, waiting for his eyes to open.
And as for what's inside the wrapped package? Well, it's a hand-knitted blanket. Not that it's necessary in a place where everything is easily bought, Jun intended to offer Hiyori a touch of extra comfort. The blanket is near the shade closest to Hiyori's image colour, with some uneven edges. It's not perfectly knit by any means, with a few gaps near the bottom, but it reflects Jun's most recent efforts in relearning sewing and knitting. (With thanks to the Ugly Duckling University!) ]
You know how we sometimes cuddle on the couch together? Well, I sorta figured itâd be nice to have this. And I didn't wanna buy anything, 'cause I think this'd show off my feelings better âȘ
[ Of course, heâll wait until Hiyori unwraps the gift, but heâs excitedly waiting to tell him all about it. ]
It's even got a lil' 'H' sewn into the bottom, 'cause it's all yours ~ âȘ
[Back home, whenever the holidays rolled around, he always made a show of expecting gifts. "Jun-kun, it's almost Christmas! Don't forget my present, alright?" It was a way of building anticipation, but he also just liked the thought of Jun scrambling around, trying to find something that would please him. Gifts are a way of showing you care, after all, and it was always nice to have proof Jun was thinking of him. It was a way of pushing himself into Jun's thoughtsâand his heartâeven more. But also, it's just plain fun to celebrate with gifts!
Now it's still fun, but the sense of anticipation is different; he feels like a schoolkid waiting to receive Valentine's chocolate from the classmate they love. He's not expecting any one thing in particular, and yet he can't help the way his brain buzzes with possibilities. Did Jun get them matching jewelry or "promise rings"? If so, how did he know his measurement? Did Jun secretly measure his ring finger while he slept, the way the heroine's boyfriend did in a drama he watched back home?? Sneaky Jun-kun! He never knew he had it in him!
He closes his eyes, his cheeks lightly flushed. As he's waiting there with his hands outstretched, Jun announces his return, placing a package in them. Even before he opens his eyes, he realizes it's too big, too bulky to be a box with a ring in it. So what did Jun buy him?
As it turns out, nothing. Jun's gift to him is something he made himself, not something he bought. Hiyori looks surprised to hear it, but not in a bad way.]
Now I'm really curious.
[He tears off the wrapping and opens the package. What he finds inside is some soft knitting. Is it a sweater? No, he realizes, it's a blanket. He turns it over in his hands, looking mesmerized. It's not that he's shocked by the quality, but rather by the effort that surely went into it. Jun has knit small items for Mary before, but he's never taken on a big project like this, has he? And yet he completed it without Hiyori even noticing. He really is sneaky.
He looks up at his partner to find him smiling softly as he talks about cuddling; how he knitted the blanket so they could snuggle together underneath it. It's such a cute explanation, sugary sweet like birthday cake, that it sends his heart fluttering. Even without the chill brought on by his connection with Esikko, this blanket would seem like just the thing he needs. And as Jun talks about the stitching he did at the end, sounding proud of himself, Hiyori loses the ability to hold back.]
So this is Jun-kun's handiwork, hmm? âȘ
[His eyes briefly drop down to the blanket, looking it over for another moment, before he smiles at Jun again.]
Very impressive! But it looks like you missed a letter.
[He speaks without a trace of admonishment. Smiling ear to ear, he shifts the blanket to his free hand and steps forward to throw his arms around Jun, draping the blanket over Jun's back. He presses their foreheads together and continues,]
It's missing a J, since this is a gift for both of us. When I'm wrapped up in Jun-kun and the blanket, I'm sure I'll feel twice as warm âȘ Just as Jun-kun will feel even more warm when he's cuddling me! That's what it means to share warmth! âȘ
[With that, he closes his eyes, tucking his head against the side of Jun's face, his voice lowering to a heartfelt murmur.]
[ Back home, many things were different. Of course, he still managed to gift Hiyori something, but what could you get someone who has everything? Back then it made Jun nervous, and now it makes him even more nervous. He wants the gifts to be useful, something Hiyori likes, just to be certain he knows his partners' preferences. Even more now, where not only does Hiyori occupy his thoughts, but also his day-to-day life.
That's why there's a hint of nervousness as he hands over something he made himself. He's not a professional at all, the stitching isn't perfect, with the "H" being off by an inch or two. But it's brimming with love and care, reflecting Jun's personality just as much. (Besides, he had been thinking about buying them rings, and he can do that any day he likes!) But this was the first big project he had worked on. While knitting something Mary's size was easier, this took time and effort, and he wanted to put in the effort to see it through to the end. ]
Yep, all my handiwork! Pretty proud I got it done âȘ
[ He seems prouder, chest puffing out a little as the motivation behind his actions becomes clear. Knitting from scratch hadn't been easy, there were times when he wanted to give up, thinking the project was bigger than planned. But wanting Hiyori to enjoy the gift, something filled with love, made the blood, sweat and tears worth it.
Jun looks a little confused by Hiyori's wording. Did he miss a letter? Nope, the H is right there! Unless he should have added a T for his last name!
Oh, that's what Hiyori meant.
He pulls Hiyori closer, rubbing their noses together as he feels the blanket around his shoulders. When Hiyori moves his head down, Jun moves his head down a little, pressing a short, soft kiss against his forehead. ]
Seems like I've got more sewing to do âȘ Though that'll hafta wait, 'cause we got a blanket to break in first! Well, I mean at least Ohii-san wants to share the warmth.
[ A blush blooms on his cheeks, feeling the shared warmth radiate between them. It's nice, having this, and wanting more. ]
[Jun's lips brush his forehead and he smiles. It seems that whenever he hugs Jun these days, Jun remembers to plant a kiss somewhere. He's doing great at this whole "boyfriend" thing. Their fans would surely be impressed.]
Mm~âȘ Whenever I'm with Jun-kun, all the cold seems to melt away.
[He stands with his arms still looped around Jun's neck, his voice full of warmth. After how the past week has gone, Jun can surely understand those words' significance; Hiyori has been shivering from cold, wearing a winter jacket everywhere, and his skin's still unnaturally cool to the touch. He's been in pain, too. But Jun's been there with him through all of it, serving as his personal heater, and in more ways than just physical. Whenever he feels cold and alone, and when he broke down in tears after that nightmare two nights ago, Jun is there to remind him that things are alright. That he's not alone and he has love in his life.
He continues,]
I've been thinking "Jun-kun is just like a blanket" for a while now, actually. Almost like a security blanket. So your gift couldn't be more fitting.
[Like Jun's poster of Jin Sagami. Funny, how Hiyori has lightly teased him about that before. How Hiyori has teased Jun about needing him, about being a helpless (but adorable) kouhai who needs his guidance, when it's Hiyori who needs him. But all he can do is accept the simple truth. He needs Jun, which is why he'll hold onto him forever.
He untucks his head so he can look Jun in the eye again, still smiling, but speaking seriously.]
But I don't want to hog all the warmth. I'd rather bask in it together. And that's why I want to promise that one day, the two of us will feel real sunlight again. That we'll escape this place and live out our dreams.
[Not artificial sun. Not an "artificial view."]
Since that's my promise to Jun-kun, perhaps we should buy promise rings. You can even call it my wedding vow, as hopelessly cheesy as that sounds.
[ It's good affection comes naturally to him now, wanting to plant a kiss or two wherever he can. Better yet, Jun has realised this is precisely what it means to be in a relationship, and that accepting affection from others is welcomed even.
His thumb caresses Hiyori's soft cheek, wanting to bring further warmth to his body, which seems to be the only way Jun can. Realising the depth of those words, his smile grows wider, manoeuvring downward, placing another kiss flat against Hiyori's temple. It serves as a reminder that despite the suffering Hiyori's been through, the cold, pain and nightmares, he'll be here forever. ]
That's what you've been thinkin', huh~? Well, good thing I've just been thinking just the same thing âȘ But until a lil' while ago, I thought I was relyin' on the poster for comfort, so turns out I got the feeling all wrong.
[ Funny how things work out, through it all they've become one another's security blankets. At first, Jun believed it was the reason for his anxiousness, why he couldn't sleep without the comforting presence of Jin watching over them. But those sleeping patterns changed, whenever they shared a hotel room, and here a bed.
It's a rather good thing he won't hold it to Hiyori, with the shoe on the other foot, he's feeling fairly smug about the turn of events. Feeling wanted and wanting to be wanted are two different matters, and wanting to be guided through the dreary, dark alleyway has turned out for the better. ]
We promised already, didn't we? We'll spend all our time in the real sun, seeing all sorta new things together! Not to mention whenever I'm with you, it feels like my dreams bein' realised in all sorts of ways.
[ But truly, he's sick and tired of the artificial sun, the artificial view of the world. This wasn't part of their shared dream, not the sort of view Jun had mentioned to Hiyori during SS. He looks back into Hiyori's eyes, a line of pink dusting his cheeks when bringing up their aforementioned promise rings. Maybe it's something he should have gifted Hiyori with, after their conversation, but he still hadn't wanted to jump the gun so soon after. ]
And here I'd thought Ohii-san forgot all 'bout 'em âȘ Jokes aside, maybe we should. I mean, it woulda sounded cheesy months ago, not gonna lie. But now? A wedding vow sounds like a mighty fine idea.
[ A promise one day, whenever said day might arrive. It's something he would've vetted and complained about months ago, but having the person you're willing to spend the rest of your life with is a commitment worth committing to. ]
And on top of that, it's gonna be my promise, too. Sorta like a mini-proposal for life âȘ
[He closes his eyes, enjoying the warm brush of Jun's lips, the thumb skimming his cheek.]
You were thinking the same thing, huh?
[Seeing him as a security blanket, just like the Jin poster. That's what Jun means, isn't it?
Normally he'd tease Jun over such an admission. "Ahaha, Jun-kun would be so hopeless without me!" Right now, however, he feels no such urge. Instead he just feels glad. What a relief this is. He's been afraid, lately, that he might have gotten too clingy. That he'll suffocate Jun and make him feel smothered. It's the last thing he wants, but he's just so afraid of losing him. So afraid that he'll wake up and find him gone, or that he'll message him and won't get a reply. That he'll find Jun's statue, like he did during his dream. Hiyori relies on Jun to keep him grounded, to make him happy, and to take care of him. He'd fall apart without him, especially after how the past week has went.
So it's a relief to hear again that Jun sees him as someone he can rely on. Even in this place, even after this week. Not a burden, but someone to keep him warm and help him feel secure. Like a blanket. Relying on Jun one-sidedly wouldn't be any good. But if they can rely on each other, and keep each other secure, then that's not being a burden. That's being "partners."
Which is what they are, now and forever.
Still. His brows do jump and his heart stutters when Jun says, "Maybe we should." Followed by "A wedding vow seems like a mighty fine idea." He hastily says,]
Well, even now it's still cheesy.
[But.
He knocks their foreheads together again and continues, speaking in a rush.]
But well, some people are actually doing that sort of thing. I heard the staff talking about it the last time I went outâhow there's been an "uptick in weddings" since the Hearts game started.
[His cheeks turn a bit pinker.]
I'm not saying we should join in. Obviously it wouldn't be the same as a real wedding. But, well... I guess if we're already doing matching rings, and we've already promised each other the future, then we're more or less halfway there, anyway.
[He pauses, still blushing. And then, at last, he clears his throat and announces the following:]
So I guess what I'm saying is: I accept your mini-proposal! âȘ
[Another pause.]
Or I would if you did have a ring. But since you don't, I'll accept this cozy blanket!
[ He hums happily against Hiyori, nodding after. Seeing him as a security blanket is what Jun means, a comfort when things are bleak. That's the sort of person Hiyori's become to him.
But life sometimes hits with so much uncertainty, he'd been met with so much before finally coming to terms with his feelings. From then on, Jun can't begin to explain how drawn he's become to affection, a feeling he once thought he could never embrace. Despite the reservations, Jun finds it almost too easy, realising he can no longer live without Hiyori. He'd be afraid of admitting the truth, but something tells him Hiyori feels the same.
Maybe it's how Hiyori knocks their foreheads together, mentioning it's still cheesy, and speaking in a rush. His heart stutters, for only a second, while still thumbing his finger across Hiyori's cheek, grinning. ]
We're not like "some people" just doin' it for some game, are we? And I'm not sayin' we should, just 'cause everyone else is. But, well, we sorta are already there, aren't we?
[ But something about Hiyori announcing it, has this feeling even more real. They'd been dancing around the subject a little, since the first time it came up, hadn't they? And there's Hiyori again, saying more eloquently than Jun ever could. ]
Nothing's stopping me from goin' out and getting one right now, Ohii-san. If ya wanna, dunno... make it official? But I'm pretty sure proposals are meant to be some huge secret, something you're not supposed to know yet! Or maybe it'll just be our secret right now! And, well, I'm not 'boutta show my hand so soon âȘ
[ The words haven't sunk in properly yet, feeling closer to a high than anything else. Hiyori accepts his mini-proposal, and Jun hugs him tighter, pressing their noses together. ]
But one day we'll have a proper, real weddingâwhenever ya want! So how's that sound?
[ Ideally, when they're back home in Japan with friends and family, Jun doesn't care whether their careers are declining. It's a promise for their future, so there's never any doubt he's not all in. ]
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Hiyori usually does, which Jun's made fun of numerous times before. But this time he took a little longer to put on the suit. He's still in disbelief this suit was made specifically for him, where it fits snugly and comfortably against his muscles without feeling too tight. He can even stretch his arm out without the fabric straining. But what's more, is how Hiyori thinks he'll look in the suit.
For now, he'll leave it unbuttoned, wanting to let his muscles shine. He hopes it looks nice, and Hiyori likes the way he looks. He half-grins, allowing Hiyori to look and take in the suit however he likes, taking in the returning smile. ]
I'm learning, Ohii-san! Can't keep giving the same compliments, 'cause I gotta keep ya on your toes âȘ
[ And he needs to step it up, because when he looks at Hiyori, especially like this and truly thinks about it... Well, he does look beautiful and the colour does bring out his eyes! Maybe the suit's power doesn't affect Jun because he's already in love and completely captivated by the person wearing it. ]
Just "pretty good"? Yeah, I think you've got that right 'bout our charm! Our fans would probably wanna see us in 'em. Long as you think I still look "classy," I won't feel bad 'bout wearing the suit out âȘ And yep, it fits pretty snug! I dunno how she knew our measurements, but she seriously got it spot on âȘ
[ Which means Hiyori's assumption is correct! Though Jun was sceptical, Hiyori's extensive knowledge from looks alone surprised him. The fact he could discern so much from looks alone leaves him feeling impressed. ]
Mhm, let's go! I wanna see how I look and I wanna see what we look like together âȘ Well, you're the one thinkin' it's a couples outfit, so... I dunno what a couples outfit looks like, Ohii-san.
[ But perhaps when they're side-to-side, looking at one another in the mirror, it'll all become clear. He flattens out the lapel, nodding towards the bathroom.
He tugs on Hiyori's hand, pulling them both into the bathroom and staring into the mirror. The flowers do seem to match, and the colours complement each other, but Jun, not being as fashion-savvy as Hiyori, is still a bit puzzled. ]
... so, what d'you think? I'd say we complement one another pretty well âȘ
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[Is that something to brag about...? And wouldn't that defeat the whole idea of creativity? Well, whatever.
In response to the next thing, he chirps,]
Yes, "pretty good!" Don't tell me Jun-kun was itching to be called "handsome" or something like that?
[He smirks. Then he adds,]
But if that's what you want, then I guess I can call you that. Since Jun-kun does look handsome.
[And beautiful, too, actually. Hiyori's always thought him to be beautiful. But that's somehow more embarrassing than calling him handsome, and he has a feeling Jun would look at him funny if he did. Then again, his reaction might be funny.
But back to the suits. Jun confirms with his next word that the suit is a perfect fit, which means Hiyori's hunch was correct. And that pleases him, somehow, in ways he doesn't quite know how to express in words at first.
That pleasure only intensifies when they head into the bathroom, standing shoulder-to-shoulder in fromt of the mirror. Like this, he can appreciate the full effect of their "couple's outfit." A quiet warmth spreads inside his chest, and all he says at first is,]
Of course we do. We're Eve!
[But that's not all. Is it?
As Eve and as Eden, they've worn complimentary outfits before. Identical ones, ones with slightly changed designs, and ones that reflect their respective image colors. Wearing matching clothes is nothing new, in other words. So why does seeing them like this in the mirror tug at his heartstrings now? It could just be that they're dating now and they weren't at home, but it also feels like it's more than that. In a way, the present from Jin Mingming feels like validation. This whole time he's been worried that their relationship is a liability here, that the House will punish them or tear them apart. It's keeping them from playing the game, after all, which is what they've been brought here for. Jin Mingming's own words had scared him to the point of nightmares.
And yet she did this for him. And it feels like their relationshipâtheir love for each otherâhas been recognized: not as something that needs to be broken up, but as something worth paying tribute to. Something beautiful.
Perhaps he's reading too much into it, but that's what it feels like.
The look in his eyes softens, and he finds his fingers brushing Jun's.]
... it's nice, isn't it?
[He graps his hand lightly and squeezes.]
I see why you wanted to pick out matching jewelry.
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Even with Hiyori bragging, no one needs to hear him praising himself today. ]
Well, I thought you'd say something else. It's not like I'm fishing for compliments, I'm just saying... Iâd rather not be called that if you donât really mean it, Ohii-san. But, thanks âȘ
[ But Hiyori's hunch is right, he expected something other than "pretty good." And maybe, deep down, he hoped he might be called handsome, or anything else. He still doesn't know that Hiyori thought he was beautiful, but would he get a big head about it? Well, probably! He'd probably think Hiyori bumped his head again or drank something strange. Either way, he'll take the handsome compliment and smile.
Is it just because they're Eve? Or is it something else? Sure, they've worn numerous matching outfits before. It's just how life is as an idol! But this feels different, having them stand shoulder-to-shoulder, bathroom mirror showing off both of their matching suits from top to tail. Something feels right, despite Jun's scepticism from earlier, he realises now Jin did mean to tailor him a suit. Watching through the mirror his heart feels full, knowing even when they haven't been shouting their relationship to the rooftops, it's still known to someone here and doesn't seem too much of a liability.
It is something beautiful, their relationship, and their love for each other. Jun never knew love could feel this intense, and it's something he never wants to squander. Despite where it's blossomed and bloomed, his eyes soften feeling Hiyori's fingers brush against his. ]
Yeah, it's nice, really nice.
[ He breathes out, giving the hand in his a squeeze back. ]
Huh, what didja mean by that?
[ Genuinely curious, Jun wonders why Hiyori would have that particular thought about them wearing matching suits now. He hadn't realised they'd moved past that point, even though they had discussed it extensively before.
... Or to the point where they'd come to a mutual understanding. ]
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But maybe, just maybe, he doesn't need to hold back at all. Not all the time, anyway. Maybe he can live with a little embarrassment.
And he's not embarrassed at all now as he opens his mouth and confirms:]
Well, I do mean it.
[There's no teasing tone, no argument; it's not a sassy retort. He just smiles gently, hoping his sincerity will shine through.
Jun does look handsome in the suit; they both do. That much is abundantly clear from looking at themselves in the mirror. They make an attractive couple, which he knows is what the suits are for: not a unit outfit (though they could be worn as such), but a couple's outfit. He and Jun were recognized as lovers. Not just cards.
He thinks about that and about the gold string that hasn't come off yet, even though he's done away with all his other strings at this point. He thinks about the suite they share together, the bird who's sleeping in her nest, the life they've built here. All of it as a pair, as "partners." Not alone.
He looks at them in the mirror, his fingers twined together with Jun's. His are still colder than their usual temperature. Timeline-wise, the connection with Esikko should still be ongoing, which I failed to realize when I started this thread. At least Weiss helped him find a way to cope with it. A reminder that things are less-than-ideal. Nothing is ideal; they're still being toyed with at every opportunity, still in danger of disappearing. Yet it wouldn't be the first time they've survived a corrupt environment. And not just survived, but thrived... isn't that right?
For the first time since Vil told him about the statues, he feels something like hope swell in his chest.
He turns to look at Jun properly.]
I don't quite know how to explain. But doesn't it sort of feel like our love is being recognized? Of course I don't need anyone's approval to love Jun-kun. And we don't need matching outfits, matching rings, or anything like that, either. But...
[He squeezes Jun's hand, his eyes narrowing in thought.]
It feels good to have something like that anyway, doesn't it? It's another way to show where our hearts are, no matter how much they say that sort of thing isn't done here. It feels almost like we're being told not to give up. And I wonder...
[He trails off.
Jin Mingming said the goal of this place, more or less, was to get everyone to be intimate with people they never would've met otherwise. People from different worlds. In doing so, this changes their fate. She said she didn't think being intimate with someone from their homeworld would promote longevity within the resort. But she also gave them this gift. Was it a consolation prize, because she knew her words upset him? Or was it an attempt to say something else?]
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Jun-kun.
[His gaze, which had looked lost in thought for a minute there, suddenly focuses.]
If we did the matching rings now, do you think that'd count as "giving ourselves"?
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Hiyori articulates it in words better than Jun could, which is exactly what heâs been thinking. Here they are, in a shitty casino, being forced here against their will⊠but all throughout it all theyâve had one another. Itâs the most comforting feeling waking up each morning seeing Hiyoriâs beautiful sleeping face. Itâs a comfort to Jun more than anything, more than Hiyori knows. ]
Itâs like youâre reading my mind, Ohii-san.
[ Which means theyâre on the same page! But being partners they usually are, arenât they? Besides his heart doing a little flip, his thumb presses into Hiyoriâs palm, rubbing circles. Really, Jun isnât quite sure how to explain it either, but itâs exactly how he feels. Why else would someone in the resort go to the effort? ]
Iâm not the sorta person who gets sappy âbout it, but it feels really good.
[ More than really good, but if he continues, heâd only be rehashing everything Hiyoriâs already said. Though, itâs true! They donât need anyoneâs permission to love one another, or matching anything. Itâs still nice to have, isnât it? Maybe love made Jun soft, but it goes to show even he can experience a feeling that intensely and still be the same person.
What Hiyoriâs proposing only makes sense. Itâs Junâs last string, too, but what else makes sense is how theyâre still connected to one another. It may not be the red string, but who needs it? The House just gave them the wrong string, thatâs all.
Itâs not exactly what he had planned for Hiyoriâs birthday, itâs definitely different. But the idea of having this, on Hiyoriâs birthday, sounds nice. But one thing! ]
The thing âbout that⊠I donât wanna get âem for the strings sake. Just for fun, but if youâre thinking itâll count⊠Guess it depends? Whatâs âgiving ourselvesâ really mean, anyway? Weâve done all that, and whoeverâs deciding what counts is probably having a good time watching us fumble it.
[ Hearts or the House, who knows at this point! ]
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At first he thought it was, because it wasn't a red string. The resort gave them red strings leading to other people, which of course was bogus. (Even if those strings did lead them to deepen their bonds with the people they did connect to.) And it gave Hiyori a second gold string, which was how he ended up shivering and whimpering in pain from phantom ailments that still haven't subsided. But the text on the screen regarding their gold string hadn't been all wrong, at least not from Hiyori's end. He may not believe in "destiny" or "soulmates" exactly, but Jun is his other half. And to find someone who will "take in every part of him" is a blessed thing. That might not be something he only shares with Jun. His relationship with Nagisa is like that, too: a bond based on mutual, unconditional acceptance. But when it comes to "having" and "being had," who else does he want to "have" more than Jun?
Jun, whom he wants to possess every part of. Jun, whom he's always confidently declared belongs to him. There's a reason Hiyori was so delighted to put a collar around his neck. But Jun wearing that collar wasn't enough to sever their string, and it's now that Hiyori realizes why that might have been: Jun might've given himself to him, but he hasn't given himself fully to Jun in return yet. Has he?
Maybe it's stupid of him to take any of this seriously. It is just another game. But...]
It's not just about the string.
[That, Hiyori can say with certainty. Looking Jun in the eye, he speaks with plenty of confidence.]
With or without this game going on, I'd still want us to match. But it isn't just about us matching. We didn't just talk about any rings, but about "promise rings." And there's a lot I want to promise Jun-kun.
[He squeezes Jun's hand, taking a breath before he launches into this next bit.]
For example, that I won't turn into one of those brainwashed career residents. That I'll never lose sight of what's important, and always stay true to my dazzling self. That I'll protect you from turning into a stone statue, and from all the horrors that go on in the basement. That we'll go home, reunite with Mary and Nagisa-kun and Ibara, and sit around a table eating delicious quiche together. That we'll perform the song we practiced for SS. And then, once all of that's done, that Jun-kun can have my future afterwards.
[He pauses, then, still squeezing Jun's hand, still looking Jun straight in the eye, hoping to convey that everything he said came straight from his heart. His expression is serious.
Then, finally, it relaxes, lips forming a smile again, soft and exhilarated.]
I don't know what nonsense Hearts has in mind. But I think that's what "giving oneself" means, at least for me. And I don't need to do it with a ring, but I like shopping and jewelry, so why not? Jun-kun said he also wanted something that matches, so that sounds like the best idea to me! âȘ
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Jun has realised now they don't need a silly, little red string to prove their love. He understands connections can form through the string, and it doesn't always have to be romantic. Besides, Jun doesn't have deep, romantic feelings for anyone else! After being afraid of intimacy for so long, finally he's grown comfortable enough for this. Sadly, Jun doesn't share this intense connection with anyone else, as his bond with Ibara isn't at the same level. Ultimately, there's no one else Jun would allow to have "all of him" the way Hiyori does.
It makes sense, doesn't it? If he has to wait his entire life to possess Hiyori, he just might. Honestly, it's not as if the string bothers him despite giving himself to his partner.
His head tilts, squeezing the hand in his tighter. ]
I justâhad to be sure, y'know? 'Cause I know we kinda did, but I still don't wanna get ahead of myself, Ohii-san.
[ He knows there's nothing to be afraid of, and he shouldn't when Hiyori's been nothing but accepting. All in all, Jun should know better. ]
Good thing Iâm not gonna let you become some brainwashed resident. And remember, we promised weâd stick together! Weâre getting outta here and head back to Mary, Nagi-senpai, and Ibara. Maybe we can still perform in SS? Who knows, maybe time's stopped back home, and weâll return to win! But I want that, 'cause you already have mine, and I'd be lying if I said I didn't.
[ His heart feels full hearing all of this, knowing Hiyori truly means it. They've already spoken about much of what they'd like to do back home, even before they were together! But he'd be lying to say he didn't want all of Hiyori's future, just as he's giving him.
When Hiyori turns serious, he knows it's real. Sure, Ohii-san is fussy, and needy and demands all of his attention, but as he's said before...! Jun could have tapped out at any time. His expression softens, a warm, fond smile spreading across his lips as he gazes at Hiyori filled with affection. ]
Don't really care what Hearts has in mind, Ohii-san. What we do shouldn't matter to 'em! But I get it, 'sides knowing shopping is your favourite hobby! And for your birthday, I wanted to pick out something nice, but guess itâs not really a surprise anymore, huh~?
[ It sounds like the "best idea" to him, too. Not because of the game, nothing ever has to do with the games this place throws at them. Jun wants to do it because he loves Hiyori, and wants to continue giving his best self every day. ]
I've got another lil' surprise for you, so you'd better be ready for it! âȘ
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It makes Hiyori feel so good, in fact, that he's willing to consider that idea that time is stopped back home, even though it sounds preposterous. Can the House's magic really influence their world? Does this whole place exist outside of time somehow, even though there are birthday celebrations and a calendar and seasonal activities like beach parties? He doesn't know, but that would be best. And it'd make things simplest for when they return.
Which they will, one day, hand in hand. He'll make sure it happens somehow.]
Mm~âȘ Maybe so. One way or another, I have faith that we'll win someday.
[A part of him wonders if that could be part of their wish: not just to go back home, but to go back to the time they were pulled from. If the House really does grant wishes. And if they completed their 52 boards. He hasn't really spent much time thinking about what-ifs like that, because he doesn't want to delude himself, and he figured that was an option that was closed to them, anyway. But given that loophole they now know about...
Well. Now isn't the time to talk about that.
Jun says he picked something out for himâthat he has another gift for him besides the breakfast in bed. Which isn't a huge surprise, but Hiyori had gotten so wrapped up in their conversation that he forgot about gift-giving. He beams at Jun.]
Jun-kun has another gift he's been waiting to unveil, huh? Excellent! Let'sâ
[see it.
But he stops before he can finish, his eyes widening as he clues into Jun's meaning. Is he saying he already bought them?
Hiyori's tempted to just ask, but after a moment's pause, he just nods, feeling uncharacteristically shy all of a sudden, his heart lodged somewhere in his throat.]
... on second thought, since Jun-kun wants to surprise me, I'll close my eyes.
[And that he does, standing there expectantly with his eyes shut.]
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"I have faith we'll win someday." Hearing these words make Jun feel a comforting warmth, as if everything will be alright once they return home. Regardless of the circumstances, their fans would still want them to win SS, even if they knew about their time in a sex casino. Jun wonders if time has stopped back home, or if he's only avoiding the thought of how Ibara and Nagi-senpai are managing without them. Eden would likely need to go on hiatus, something he's sure Hiyori wouldn't want to think too deeply about. Perhaps Ibara and Nagisa are performing as Adam, keeping the excitement alive for Eden and, by extension, Eve, ensuring that fans still talk about them. ]
Right, you'd better keep your eyes closed âȘ
[ It's nothing extravagant, especially in a place where you can buy almost anything. But it's something Jun made himselfâsimple yet heartfelt. He steps away briefly, retrieving the gift from its hidden spot in one of their drawers. With a warm smile, he hands the package to Hiyori. Though Hiyori can't see the fondness in Jun's eyes right now, heâll notice it once he opens the gift. ]
Made it myself, so dunno if it's good... But you can open 'em now!
[ He'll move to place the gift in Hiyori's hands, waiting for his eyes to open.
And as for what's inside the wrapped package? Well, it's a hand-knitted blanket. Not that it's necessary in a place where everything is easily bought, Jun intended to offer Hiyori a touch of extra comfort. The blanket is near the shade closest to Hiyori's image colour, with some uneven edges. It's not perfectly knit by any means, with a few gaps near the bottom, but it reflects Jun's most recent efforts in relearning sewing and knitting. (With thanks to the Ugly Duckling University!) ]
You know how we sometimes cuddle on the couch together? Well, I sorta figured itâd be nice to have this. And I didn't wanna buy anything, 'cause I think this'd show off my feelings better âȘ
[ Of course, heâll wait until Hiyori unwraps the gift, but heâs excitedly waiting to tell him all about it. ]
It's even got a lil' 'H' sewn into the bottom, 'cause it's all yours ~ âȘ
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Now it's still fun, but the sense of anticipation is different; he feels like a schoolkid waiting to receive Valentine's chocolate from the classmate they love. He's not expecting any one thing in particular, and yet he can't help the way his brain buzzes with possibilities. Did Jun get them matching jewelry or "promise rings"? If so, how did he know his measurement? Did Jun secretly measure his ring finger while he slept, the way the heroine's boyfriend did in a drama he watched back home?? Sneaky Jun-kun! He never knew he had it in him!
He closes his eyes, his cheeks lightly flushed. As he's waiting there with his hands outstretched, Jun announces his return, placing a package in them. Even before he opens his eyes, he realizes it's too big, too bulky to be a box with a ring in it. So what did Jun buy him?
As it turns out, nothing. Jun's gift to him is something he made himself, not something he bought. Hiyori looks surprised to hear it, but not in a bad way.]
Now I'm really curious.
[He tears off the wrapping and opens the package. What he finds inside is some soft knitting. Is it a sweater? No, he realizes, it's a blanket. He turns it over in his hands, looking mesmerized. It's not that he's shocked by the quality, but rather by the effort that surely went into it. Jun has knit small items for Mary before, but he's never taken on a big project like this, has he? And yet he completed it without Hiyori even noticing. He really is sneaky.
He looks up at his partner to find him smiling softly as he talks about cuddling; how he knitted the blanket so they could snuggle together underneath it. It's such a cute explanation, sugary sweet like birthday cake, that it sends his heart fluttering. Even without the chill brought on by his connection with Esikko, this blanket would seem like just the thing he needs. And as Jun talks about the stitching he did at the end, sounding proud of himself, Hiyori loses the ability to hold back.]
So this is Jun-kun's handiwork, hmm? âȘ
[His eyes briefly drop down to the blanket, looking it over for another moment, before he smiles at Jun again.]
Very impressive! But it looks like you missed a letter.
[He speaks without a trace of admonishment. Smiling ear to ear, he shifts the blanket to his free hand and steps forward to throw his arms around Jun, draping the blanket over Jun's back. He presses their foreheads together and continues,]
It's missing a J, since this is a gift for both of us. When I'm wrapped up in Jun-kun and the blanket, I'm sure I'll feel twice as warm âȘ Just as Jun-kun will feel even more warm when he's cuddling me! That's what it means to share warmth! âȘ
[With that, he closes his eyes, tucking his head against the side of Jun's face, his voice lowering to a heartfelt murmur.]
... thanks, Jun-kun.
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That's why there's a hint of nervousness as he hands over something he made himself. He's not a professional at all, the stitching isn't perfect, with the "H" being off by an inch or two. But it's brimming with love and care, reflecting Jun's personality just as much. (Besides, he had been thinking about buying them rings, and he can do that any day he likes!) But this was the first big project he had worked on. While knitting something Mary's size was easier, this took time and effort, and he wanted to put in the effort to see it through to the end. ]
Yep, all my handiwork! Pretty proud I got it done âȘ
[ He seems prouder, chest puffing out a little as the motivation behind his actions becomes clear. Knitting from scratch hadn't been easy, there were times when he wanted to give up, thinking the project was bigger than planned. But wanting Hiyori to enjoy the gift, something filled with love, made the blood, sweat and tears worth it.
Jun looks a little confused by Hiyori's wording. Did he miss a letter? Nope, the H is right there! Unless he should have added a T for his last name!
Oh, that's what Hiyori meant.
He pulls Hiyori closer, rubbing their noses together as he feels the blanket around his shoulders. When Hiyori moves his head down, Jun moves his head down a little, pressing a short, soft kiss against his forehead. ]
Seems like I've got more sewing to do âȘ Though that'll hafta wait, 'cause we got a blanket to break in first! Well, I mean at least Ohii-san wants to share the warmth.
[ A blush blooms on his cheeks, feeling the shared warmth radiate between them. It's nice, having this, and wanting more. ]
You're welcome, Ohii-san. I'm glad ya like it âȘ
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Mm~âȘ Whenever I'm with Jun-kun, all the cold seems to melt away.
[He stands with his arms still looped around Jun's neck, his voice full of warmth. After how the past week has gone, Jun can surely understand those words' significance; Hiyori has been shivering from cold, wearing a winter jacket everywhere, and his skin's still unnaturally cool to the touch. He's been in pain, too. But Jun's been there with him through all of it, serving as his personal heater, and in more ways than just physical. Whenever he feels cold and alone, and when he broke down in tears after that nightmare two nights ago, Jun is there to remind him that things are alright. That he's not alone and he has love in his life.
He continues,]
I've been thinking "Jun-kun is just like a blanket" for a while now, actually. Almost like a security blanket. So your gift couldn't be more fitting.
[Like Jun's poster of Jin Sagami. Funny, how Hiyori has lightly teased him about that before. How Hiyori has teased Jun about needing him, about being a helpless (but adorable) kouhai who needs his guidance, when it's Hiyori who needs him. But all he can do is accept the simple truth. He needs Jun, which is why he'll hold onto him forever.
He untucks his head so he can look Jun in the eye again, still smiling, but speaking seriously.]
But I don't want to hog all the warmth. I'd rather bask in it together. And that's why I want to promise that one day, the two of us will feel real sunlight again. That we'll escape this place and live out our dreams.
[Not artificial sun. Not an "artificial view."]
Since that's my promise to Jun-kun, perhaps we should buy promise rings. You can even call it my wedding vow, as hopelessly cheesy as that sounds.
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His thumb caresses Hiyori's soft cheek, wanting to bring further warmth to his body, which seems to be the only way Jun can. Realising the depth of those words, his smile grows wider, manoeuvring downward, placing another kiss flat against Hiyori's temple. It serves as a reminder that despite the suffering Hiyori's been through, the cold, pain and nightmares, he'll be here forever. ]
That's what you've been thinkin', huh~? Well, good thing I've just been thinking just the same thing âȘ But until a lil' while ago, I thought I was relyin' on the poster for comfort, so turns out I got the feeling all wrong.
[ Funny how things work out, through it all they've become one another's security blankets. At first, Jun believed it was the reason for his anxiousness, why he couldn't sleep without the comforting presence of Jin watching over them. But those sleeping patterns changed, whenever they shared a hotel room, and here a bed.
It's a rather good thing he won't hold it to Hiyori, with the shoe on the other foot, he's feeling fairly smug about the turn of events. Feeling wanted and wanting to be wanted are two different matters, and wanting to be guided through the dreary, dark alleyway has turned out for the better. ]
We promised already, didn't we? We'll spend all our time in the real sun, seeing all sorta new things together! Not to mention whenever I'm with you, it feels like my dreams bein' realised in all sorts of ways.
[ But truly, he's sick and tired of the artificial sun, the artificial view of the world. This wasn't part of their shared dream, not the sort of view Jun had mentioned to Hiyori during SS. He looks back into Hiyori's eyes, a line of pink dusting his cheeks when bringing up their aforementioned promise rings. Maybe it's something he should have gifted Hiyori with, after their conversation, but he still hadn't wanted to jump the gun so soon after. ]
And here I'd thought Ohii-san forgot all 'bout 'em âȘ Jokes aside, maybe we should. I mean, it woulda sounded cheesy months ago, not gonna lie. But now? A wedding vow sounds like a mighty fine idea.
[ A promise one day, whenever said day might arrive. It's something he would've vetted and complained about months ago, but having the person you're willing to spend the rest of your life with is a commitment worth committing to. ]
And on top of that, it's gonna be my promise, too. Sorta like a mini-proposal for life âȘ
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You were thinking the same thing, huh?
[Seeing him as a security blanket, just like the Jin poster. That's what Jun means, isn't it?
Normally he'd tease Jun over such an admission. "Ahaha, Jun-kun would be so hopeless without me!" Right now, however, he feels no such urge. Instead he just feels glad. What a relief this is. He's been afraid, lately, that he might have gotten too clingy. That he'll suffocate Jun and make him feel smothered. It's the last thing he wants, but he's just so afraid of losing him. So afraid that he'll wake up and find him gone, or that he'll message him and won't get a reply. That he'll find Jun's statue, like he did during his dream. Hiyori relies on Jun to keep him grounded, to make him happy, and to take care of him. He'd fall apart without him, especially after how the past week has went.
So it's a relief to hear again that Jun sees him as someone he can rely on. Even in this place, even after this week. Not a burden, but someone to keep him warm and help him feel secure. Like a blanket. Relying on Jun one-sidedly wouldn't be any good. But if they can rely on each other, and keep each other secure, then that's not being a burden. That's being "partners."
Which is what they are, now and forever.
Still. His brows do jump and his heart stutters when Jun says, "Maybe we should." Followed by "A wedding vow seems like a mighty fine idea." He hastily says,]
Well, even now it's still cheesy.
[But.
He knocks their foreheads together again and continues, speaking in a rush.]
But well, some people are actually doing that sort of thing. I heard the staff talking about it the last time I went outâhow there's been an "uptick in weddings" since the Hearts game started.
[His cheeks turn a bit pinker.]
I'm not saying we should join in. Obviously it wouldn't be the same as a real wedding. But, well... I guess if we're already doing matching rings, and we've already promised each other the future, then we're more or less halfway there, anyway.
[He pauses, still blushing. And then, at last, he clears his throat and announces the following:]
So I guess what I'm saying is: I accept your mini-proposal! âȘ
[Another pause.]
Or I would if you did have a ring. But since you don't, I'll accept this cozy blanket!
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[ He hums happily against Hiyori, nodding after. Seeing him as a security blanket is what Jun means, a comfort when things are bleak. That's the sort of person Hiyori's become to him.
But life sometimes hits with so much uncertainty, he'd been met with so much before finally coming to terms with his feelings. From then on, Jun can't begin to explain how drawn he's become to affection, a feeling he once thought he could never embrace. Despite the reservations, Jun finds it almost too easy, realising he can no longer live without Hiyori. He'd be afraid of admitting the truth, but something tells him Hiyori feels the same.
Maybe it's how Hiyori knocks their foreheads together, mentioning it's still cheesy, and speaking in a rush. His heart stutters, for only a second, while still thumbing his finger across Hiyori's cheek, grinning. ]
We're not like "some people" just doin' it for some game, are we? And I'm not sayin' we should, just 'cause everyone else is. But, well, we sorta are already there, aren't we?
[ But something about Hiyori announcing it, has this feeling even more real. They'd been dancing around the subject a little, since the first time it came up, hadn't they? And there's Hiyori again, saying more eloquently than Jun ever could. ]
Nothing's stopping me from goin' out and getting one right now, Ohii-san. If ya wanna, dunno... make it official? But I'm pretty sure proposals are meant to be some huge secret, something you're not supposed to know yet! Or maybe it'll just be our secret right now! And, well, I'm not 'boutta show my hand so soon âȘ
[ The words haven't sunk in properly yet, feeling closer to a high than anything else. Hiyori accepts his mini-proposal, and Jun hugs him tighter, pressing their noses together. ]
But one day we'll have a proper, real weddingâwhenever ya want! So how's that sound?
[ Ideally, when they're back home in Japan with friends and family, Jun doesn't care whether their careers are declining. It's a promise for their future, so there's never any doubt he's not all in. ]