At first, I considered it an act of rebellion. I thought they *did* want things to be shallow and meaningless. By caring for each other deeply, I thought we were going against what the House wanted for us.
But it's not like that at all. Lots of activities here are designed for more than just sex. Someone here does want us to get attached, even though we'd have so much less to feel sad about if we didn't.
And yet whether we live our lives according to what they want or what they don't want, we're still basing our choices off their expectations. Either way we're lonely, and either way we lose.
That's what I always think about at times like this.
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At first, I considered it an act of rebellion. I thought they *did* want things to be shallow and meaningless. By caring for each other deeply, I thought we were going against what the House wanted for us.
But it's not like that at all. Lots of activities here are designed for more than just sex. Someone here does want us to get attached, even though we'd have so much less to feel sad about if we didn't.
And yet whether we live our lives according to what they want or what they don't want, we're still basing our choices off their expectations. Either way we're lonely, and either way we lose.
That's what I always think about at times like this.