[ Imagine being that loser, couldn't be him! And there's no need for Jun to ever practice French again.
And here it is: Jun's big shot! The one he seemed to be wanting to take but wasn't sure how. Who knew striking up a conversation with a stranger on the Network could motivate you enough to finally take the plunge? Little does he know that Hiyori stumbled upon his post, reading the words he had carefully crafted to prevent revealing too much information, but enough the person he was referring to may have noticed.
After a span of a few weeks, several events have unfolded, namely Rinne-senpai's return, presenting an ideal moment to seize. Now, it becomes imperative for him to reassert his intentions, mostly for this to be a date remains crystal clear. He may not be pouring out how he feels right away, but progress is being made. Slowly, one step at a time, maybe marking the initial stride towards the path of romance.
Even if Hiyori is giving him the teasing look, he can't help but smile, The happiness and seeing how happy his partner is have him realising—maybe he should've done this sooner. ]
Yeah, that's why I'm here, askin' ♪ Soon as Weiss-san told me 'bout it, actually... Which is pretty embarrassing to admit.
[ But perhaps it's not as bad as he initially thought! He senses this could be his opportunity to "take a shot," willingly admitting to embarrassing details. By doing so, he's subtly signalling to Hiyori that he's interested in him, which might mitigate any embarrassment he feels. ]
Really~? Well, I'm really glad you'd wanna with someone like me. It means a lot hearin' something like that from you, Ohii-san.
[ It seems they are on the same page, which is wonderfully brilliant. Asking took courage, and he's teasing a little, but he does mean that. Jun's heart continues its rapid beats, witnessing the giddiness from his partner fills him with an indescribable warmth. ]
Either way, we're gonna have fun! I'm really looking forward to going with you.
[At least he read that instead of the other thread. In fact, he was probably so distracted by that thread that he had to go lie down for a while... A little embarrassing, but this "being in love" thing is kind of overwhelming at times!
Right now, however, he's fine. He's had time to process that Network thread, alongside all their other interactions and everything else that's transpired. He knows how Jun feels (he thinks, mostly!) and he knows how to respond.
Though honestly, he does still feel a little overwhelmed, in that giddy sort of way. Jun said he wanted to ask him as soon as he heard about it! When Jun hears the word "date," his mind jumps straight to him, apparently! As it should, of course, but it's still a nice thing to hear.]
Me too ♪
[He agrees readily, no take-backs and no teasing. He'll even add,]
A recital, a fancy get-together, and a date with Jun-kun sounds like the perfect evening to me.
[Confirming their feelings are the same. Though, before Jun can respond to that, he continues excitedly:]
Don't hesitate to ask me if you have questions about how to conduct yourself, alright? I'll teach you everything there is to know about etiquette! Though I am curious what the theme will be, since that'll influence what I choose to wear! Or what we choose to wear, rather, since we both ought to look our utmost best ♪
[ Thank you, Hiyori, for not reading the other thread. Sure, all of that sounds dramatic, but maybe "being in love" is about being dramatic! Really, he was being dramatic about it himself, having run all the way here.
Maybe all he needed was a gentle push; he had been noticing the little things his partner did, which were beginning to make a real difference in Jun's day-to-day life. Even though it wasn't easy for him to understand, Hiyori seemed to be acting just like his usual self, but Jun no longer feels "scared" about admitting he wants a proper date. (But when he finds out that all those other times were dates as well, he is going to be very embarrassed.)
At home or out in this world, there's just no one else who he'd want to invite. Like a secret that both know but haven't dared to say out loud—those fluttery feelings, that spark of possibility. And now, with Hiyori's confirmation, it's like a fizzy burst of excitement bubbling up inside Jun. It's funny how sometimes life throws you something good, making you feel like a giddy school kid with a secret crush, even when you thought you'd never have those feelings. ]
And sure, Ohii-san. I don't really know the proper word you used, so if wanna teach me how to "conduct" myself, I'd be really grateful. The only fancy parties I've bothered with are the ones for CosPro, but those're just "business," or whatever Ibara said. Well, I guess something fancy for the recital, 'cause it's gonna be a performance? That's just my guess ♪ Weiss-san said the party will be at someone's place, but I was going to say they've probably got a real big space.
[ He's excitedly prattling off all the information he knows, as being the first to know something is exciting. Who would know the theme for the party would be "beach," but buying two outfits should be fine for the future, as they aren't hurting for chips these days. ]
Though he does realize Jun probably didn't see it as one, at least not at the time of invitation. Even he hadn't been sure how "date-like" it would turn out. But things played out rather romantically, with kisses and hand-holding, and they had a lovely time besides. Which means it was definitely a date! That's his conclusion, anyway.
Still, this is special. This one Jun does see as a date, and he's the one who asked! Not to mention it's rather more formal. Less chance of finding lube in treasure chests, more chance of eating finger food and wowing their fellow guests in elegant formalwear. Fortunately he's comfortable in such environments, and all too happy to guide Jun through them.]
Do you have anything that qualifies? I wasn't sure if you kept whatever you woke up in, but I assume that was "fancy."
[He, admittedly, kept most of the ex-fine-esque outfit, but it isn't in good shape. It's all folded up and wrinkled in a drawer somewhere. He doesn't want to wear that thing! It's just there in case of some all-his-other-clothes-are-in-the-wash emergency. Pieces of it could be worn separately without reminding him of ex-fine too much, at least. But he wouldn't want to wear the whole ensemble, and he didn't keep parts like the wedding veil or the gloves. Those got left behind on the floor of the wedding suite and presumably swept up by staff.
Fortunately, he has other clothes including formal attire. He just isn't sure if Jun does since Jun mostly wears comfortable clothes. But if not:]
If not, we'll just have to shop! But as far as the recital goes, I'm sure you know how to sit quietly and applaud. Then at the party, well... I guess that depends on the setup? If there's no dinner table, then there's not much to talk about in terms of table manners. And this place is a mix of different cultures, so you might be expected to shake hands when meeting new people rather than bowing. This will probably just be a case of "see what other people are doing and try to copy that."
But in general, my advice would be to keep your chin up, smile, and keep the conversation topics pleasant. I'm sure you'll do fine. You learn well, you've opened up a lot this past year, and you'll have me with you!
[ Although uncertain at the time, he now acknowledges the possibility that it was indeed a date! Holding hands and sharing kisses certainly meet the criteria, even though he didn't recognise it until later. The atmosphere felt "romantic," despite his limited knowledge of romance.
Really, he struggles to find the right words to describe it. Perhaps it's because every outing since the maze has felt different, or maybe it's just being around Hiyori that changes everything. Ever since the Springtime event, everything has felt off-kilter, though he has been hesitant to pinpoint exactly what's changed. It's all been a bit of a puzzle, but he's slowly starting to unravel those emotions—perhaps not the love aspect just yet, but certainly other facets.
But here's the kicker—finding out you've caught feelings for someone in a setting like this? It's like a plot twist in a heart-wrenching drama. Mustering the courage to ask someone out because you've suddenly clocked that you're head over heels for them, after two whole years? Feels like life's playing a cruel joke on you. And realising that back home, you wouldn't have even entertained the idea? Now that's a tough pill to swallow.
But maybe it's just cruel fate that he's yearning for this with Hiyori. So, if he has to, he'll let his partner take the lead in situations where he's not too comfortable (such as parties!) and whatever else comes their way.
And now Hiyori has reminded him about the "welcome suit." ]
Yeah, the suit I woke up in's still in my room somewhere! No idea if the suit's in any shape to wear, though.
[ That suit has been tucked away in his packing cubes ever since he got here. He's not exactly sure when he'll bust it out again, but tossing those clothes just wasn't an option. The only hiccup? It's a wedding suit (or rather, it looks like the one from the 3rd anniversary), and after three months in a packing cube, the fabric's probably seen better days. But he's held onto everything else, so it'll all work out somehow. ]
And I don't really need suits like you do, so that's the only one I've got outta all my clothes here.
[ Comfortable clothes are easier to wear, that's all! A pair of jeans or pants that aren't stiff, a jacket, and a normal shirt. Those are all he ever needs! But as for button-up shirts? Nah, he'll take a hard pass on those. (He does enjoy Hiyori wearing them for multiple reasons..) ]
Sure, how 'bout I show you the state the suits in? We've gotta do our own washing down on the basement floors, and I dunno how to wash a suit. Maybe buying a new one'll be less hassle. And I know how to sit and applaud, so that'll be a piece of cake. Well, the party sounded pretty casual. But Weiss-san used the fancy word earlier, so I dunno what sorta environment it'll be. Handshakes'll be easy, 'cause we already do tons of those events!
[ No bowing, got it! Not as he usually does when meeting and introducing himself to someone for the first time! ]
And if I run into trouble, I'll just look to you for guidance, Ohii-san. And with you by my side, I'll know I'm giving my best effort ♪
[Is it crueler to catch feelings for someone else here, or crueler to have already had those feelings?
Hiyori can only speak for the second one, but suffice to say, it's been hard. Loving someone isn't easy; "too much energy" is what he'd said to Tsumugi that one time, and he wasn't wrong. Loving someone isn't all fluffy feelings and happiness. Loving someone, at least in this environment, means worrying himself sick and constantly fretting over whether that person will be alright. Always being on guard around others, his stomach churning at the thought that someone might try to "steal" his partner from him. It's exhausting, in other words.
But it's times like these that make it all seem worth it: seeing Jun smile and hearing him talk excitedly about their plans, after rushing right up to his room to ask him on a date. All his worries about the future and about their environment seem to dissipate into thin air. In moments like this, he can truly be happy. Something as simple as chatting about suits with Jun feels both refreshing and oddly exhilarating.]
Normally you'd just take it to a dry cleaner's. With 90-something floors, there's bound to be one of those around somewhere. Though I'm not sure wearing a full suit is necessary. Just a dress shirt and slacks should do, unless there's a formal dress code. Though I am curious to know what your so-called wedding outfit looked like.
[The last bit said with a teasing smile. A wedding outfit might be a bit much for a rehearsal—especially one where Jun's not even the performer. And it's certainly not like Hiyori wants to show off his "wedding outfit." But the thought of seeing Jun in wedding clothes is, well... it's exciting! Now more than ever! (Though he does still remember Jun's outfit from the Bridal Field Trip...)
And then his smile becomes more pronounced when Jun says that last line. He's smiling so hard his face hurts, really. This is what you call excellent weather.]
Doing your best for my sake, hmm? That's good, I like that! My offer from SS last year still stands, of course. Just take my hand, and I'll guide you step-by-step through the world of nobility ♪ I'm sure that one day, you'll look perfectly respectable standing at my side. Like a perfect gentleman... ♪
[ Perhaps it's because Jun holds onto the hope that this will work out, he's not overly concerned with the worrying aspect. True, the journey has been arduous and he hasn't particularly enjoyed being here, but being alongside Hiyori has changed his perspective. Convinced that no one could intrude upon their bond, nor would he permit it, especially after they've shared such countless moments of affection. Perhaps realising that the sentiment he's always felt was indeed love, he sincerely doubts anyone else could understand and cherish Hiyori like he does.
Even though it may sound self-centered, Jun's conviction lies in the belief that no one could ever take his place. But acknowledging the thought is something he'll keep guarded, unwilling to entertain the possibility of being replaced by someone else. But in these moments, he senses that Hiyori shares the same sentiment, even if neither has voiced it or broached the subject directly. Jun feels like he's gradually understanding, admitting it to himself, yet navigating these uncharted emotions cautiously, wanting to untangle them before fully confessing, with no room for takebacks. ]
Yeah, dry cleaners? With my rank, I seriously doubt I'll get the suit back anytime soon. Plus, all those floors're gonna make my head spin! The shirt and pants should be fine, like you said, 'cause going too overdressed might look like I'm trying too hard. But if you wanna see me in the entire thing, how 'bout I show you sometime?
[ He doesn't really mind donning the full suit again, even if Hiyori's teasing him for it. However, wearing the whole ensemble might seem a tad too formal for the occasion! Plus, he wouldn't want to steal the spotlight from Weiss's big performance, so a dress shirt and pants suit him just fine. Though he can't help but wonder what Hiyori's "wedding outfit" looked like or if he even still has it, either way, he's seen his partner pull off plenty of suits before.
Instead, he reaches out, gently intertwining his fingers with Hiyori's, giving their hands a tender squeeze. In that moment, he doesn't feel the need to ask for anything, sensing that perhaps they've moved beyond the stage of asking and into a deeper understanding.
And his own cheeks ache from the constant smile plastered on his face, but he knows it's a small price to pay for being in the presence of someone who brings you such joy. ]
You probably didn't mean literally, but I'd like to take your hand anyway. And that's a pretty good motivator, Ohii-san. How'd I ever refuse something like that? One day, I'm gonna get there, surprise myself and maaaybe even you ♪
[With his rank, huh? He keeps forgetting that's how it works. Little does Hiyori realize that the rank system influences how quickly they get to his requests, too—like the one he made under an hour ago! He asked for some help installing a little something in his room (just something quick!), and they said they'd do it, but no one's come by just yet. Probably because they have higher-ranked guests to tend to first. But if he'd been below a five, they might have simply told him to do it himself, and if he was a two they might have just ignored him...
Well, never mind the worthless rank system, or his request. He gets distracted by the thought of Jun modeling the so-called wedding outfit for him! Hiyori replies straightaway, seeming enthused.]
Sounds great! I may even take pictures. That'd be a charming photoshoot, and a lovely addition to my camera roll ♪
[More charming than those suit tattoo photos they took. That's for sure.
He gets to thinking about his own "wedding suit" next. Of course he disliked his own, but maybe he could try on something similar for Jun, for a proper exchange. Before he can make this all about himself and his love of dress-up, though, Jun grasps his hands, and that simple gesture grinds all his conscious thoughts to a halt.
Goodness knows they've touched hands before. Plenty of times onstage, for starters. But here, alone in his room, after the conversation where Jun asked him out on a "date," the gesture leaves quite the impact. Hiyori's eyes flare a bit, his reddened cheeks aching for a different reason than Jun's. It really isn't fair, how precious little effort it takes for Jun to make his heart race.
... though is this low-effort on Jun's part? It seems to him like Jun's been putting himself out there, making an effort to connect to him and communicate his feelings properly. It's more than Hiyori ever could've expected from the boy who spoke so little when they first met. The one who'd been beaten into silence by his time as a "Non-Special Student." That's the very same boy who's holding his hands right now, saying he wants to stand at his side like a perfect gentleman one day. Jun-kun really bloomed beautifully under his tutelage.
He'll be even more beautiful in the future, surely. Someone well and truly worthy of standing at his side, in other words.]
It'll take a lot of effort to surprise me. ... or so I'd like to say, but I know you can do it.
[He squeezes Jun's hands back. A lightly-flushed, but pleased expression on his face.]
You always find ways to surprise me. It's been like that ever since I first picked you up. So I look forward to seeing what surprises Jun-kun has in store for the future.
[ Really, the treatment of lower-ranking residents is his main gripe with this place. There is no question that Hiyori's rank would not receive the same attention as a lowly four, but he has no interest in advancing for that reason alone. Plus, he's completely fine with doing the laundry himself or any other boring chore that the people on the lower floors have no choice but to undertake. However, he would prefer it if he could get the suit back without much fuss...
But what could the thing Hiyori's trying to install be? It's a shame it wasn't here already... Either way, he's happy to model more clothing for Hiyori. It's not anything he's really ashamed of, just more so how it happened, but it's fine now! It wasn't a real marriage, even though it was cleared up long ago. ]
Mmm, yeah ♪ If you wanna take pics, I'm not gonna stop you. But they'll be for your eyes only, Ohii-san.
[ Not that he cares much if other people see them, he'll be wearing the suit for Hiyori. The last time they took photos was for the suit tattoos, which feels like months ago now. He can't complain much about how quickly time has passed; so many positive things have happened since they arrived here. And if Hiyori is interested in trying on an outfit as well, that is just another option for them to consider.
Opening up like this isn't a walk in the park for Jun. He's just started warming up to the idea of having feelings for someone, let alone summoning the courage to act on them. Despite the challenge, his smile reveals his determination to express himself clearly. Moments like these push him to ensure there's no room for misunderstandings. It's been confusing to convey those feelings here and easier to ignore them back home, but ultimately, those feelings for Hiyori have always been there.
It's hard to say what's going on in Hiyori's mind, but his actions show gratitude. They've been in sync since the Springtime Event, and now Jun's showing how much he values their relationship. Keeping up with Hiyori has been a challenge, but he can sense how much progress he's made since they first crossed paths. ]
'Course I know you don't surprise easily, but doesn't mean I'm not gonna bother. You'll just hafta keep watching to see ♪
[ His own cheeks are flushed, but it feels as if a mass has been lifted from his shoulders. ]
So I'm gonna give it all I've got! Doing stuff like working hard to surprise you will keep coming, Ohii-san. Everything else'll fall right into place.
[ Just as this has, he doesn't want anything to change. ]
[It's sadly not a kotatsu. Nor is it anything that requires that much effort to set up. Just drilling a hook in the ceiling! It's something he could do himself, he just doesn't feel like it!
... it's also right there in the box that's propped up behind the couch. But if Jun asked what was in that, well, that would mess up continuity, since he still doesn't know what it is by the time they have their network thread the next day. So for now, Jun will just have to remain unaware that Hiyori is hanging a canopy over his bed. Something like this, except with some lights added. All so he can sleep and fuck his boyfriend in peace, without worrying about the House spying on him with hidden cameras! When he said he wouldn't mind being filmed 24 hours a day, that was not an invitation to the House!!
Er, but anyway.
There's not a whole lot left to say. They're on the same page, and he's sure what's in their heart is one and the same. He hasn't always been sure of that, but he's certain of it right now. And he knows a romantic mood has formed, just like it did in the flower maze when Jun said the carnation looked beautiful on him. So, having twined their hands, he brings their foreheads together next.]
Mm ♪
[He hums happily, before leaning in to peck Jun on the lips: soft and chaste, but still heartfelt. In the aftermath, he smiles fondly.]
I've got lots of surprises up my sleeve, too, of course. So you'd better prepare yourself ♪
[ Hopefully, that could be something Jun invests in the future. Not as if they'd need it with the heating, but a little comfort from home might be nice.
.... though, picturing Hiyori drilling a hook in the ceiling might be the most amusing thought. Good thing he hasn't noticed the box, nor will he, not until it's finally set up! More than likely, if Jun knew, he'd probably offer to hang it himself. But the canopy will offer a lot more privacy, so they can do whatever they'd like without the House watching their every move.
It has been confusing getting to this point, but they're very clearly on the same page, and Jun couldn't be happier. Resting their foreheads together, each time Hiyori kisses him, it's as if his breath catches within his throat.
He returns the hum, adding a peck of his own, rubbing his thumb across Hiyori's palm. ]
You do, huh~? Looks like I'll hafta start seriously preparing myself for real ♪ Doubt you'll go dropping any hints, so I gotta be patient. Doing stuff like this has me real excited, didja know? More specially, 'bout goin' on this journey with you.
[He kind of wanted it to be a surprise. And perhaps he was just the tiniest bit shy about his rationale being obvious: that is, that he wants a privacy curtain so they can hug and kiss and do other things away from the House's prying eyes!
But if the staff member never shows up, he could always have Jun do it. Or Rinne now that Rinne's back. He owes Hiyori for making him worry!
For future reference, though, we'll assume they did show up, and that the canopy is prepared by the time Jun takes refuge in his room away from crawlers and chemical spills. All's well that ends well.
It's silly that even a peck from Jun is enough to make his heart soar. Or that Jun's thumb sliding across his palm stirs so much warmth in his chest. But that's the magic of love, he's finding out: even the littlest things feel special and wonderful!
And is there anything "little" about this? He can't picture the old Jun-kun pecking his lips sweetly and talking so poetically. His phrasing causes Hiyori's eyebrows to lift.]
A journey, hmm? ♪ That's a lovely way of putting it.
[His eyes fall shut. Sometimes it really does feel like he's dreaming. The whole place feels unreal, in good ways and (many, many) bad ways. But he feels positive his relationship with Jun isn't some fleeting dream, but his new reality. Their new reality. A journey they're embarking on together!]
I'm not sure I've ever been on the sort of journey you're talking about. But now, I simply can't wait ♪ I'm sure the "grand surprise" that lies in store for us will be absolutely astonishing. And perhaps we'll even find some hidden treasure chests along the way! ♪
[Then he blinks his eyes open.]
—Ah, not the ones the House left. I meant other treasures. The kind we plant and uncover ourselves! I don't want to give them too much credit.
[ It will be one big surprise, but ultimately, it makes the most sense from their perspective. He still doesn't understand how or when the House knows they've had sex, so a private little space for them makes perfect sense. (... until their watches go off again.)
Besides, he's trying to figure out those feelings. Sure, he's aware of just how difficult it is to express yourself, but being here with Hiyori now has taught him many wonderful things. Perhaps things he might not have learned for a long time, especially if they were back home, but without reason, he's learning just what it feels like to have intense, deep feelings. Instead of denying them!
Which includes all the new phrasing he's been working on. Not only to help express how he feels better but to show Hiyori how much effort he's going to. See, he has been paying attention! ]
Mmm, yeah! I've been learnin' new things ♪ And paying attention to stuff 'round here.
[ He smiles again, taking a deep breath before exhaling. Right now, it feels as if he's in the happiest place on Earth, which would be true if they weren't stuck here. But there are only positive feelings when he thinks about Hiyori, what their future means together and whatever comes from it once they return. ]
Well, bein' honest, I've never been on one myself! Looks like we're gonna work out the kinks together ♪ Yeah, I'm really looking forward to going through this with you, Ohii-san. It might be bumpy, but I know we got it!
[ He squeezes their hands again. ]
Yeah, didn't think you'd wanna give them any credit. We've done it so far without their help, so don't think we're gonna start anytime soon. So, it'll be sorta like a garden, won't it? We're gonna watch ourselves grow every day!
[Sadly there's no escaping those watches going off. Though things could be worse. The watches could play that one Lonely Island song every time someone has intercourse!
Hiyori's heart squeezes in time with Jun squeezing his hand. When he said he'd never been on this sort of journey before, he meant that he'd never dated someone. Not with any degree of seriousness, anyway. This whole "being in love" thing is new to him. But it's the same for Jun, and they'll just have to figure it out together! They've been doing well so far, anyway. Maybe this is a cage where they can't spread their wings fully, but when he's with Jun-kun, his heart soars and takes flight!
In other words, Jun isn't alone in the cheesy-metaphors-for-their-relationship department. It seems they both have plenty of those up their sleeve. And didn't Jun once compare him to a ray of sunshine who can make "even a dirty stray dog like him" sparkle and shine? Perhaps their relationship has always brought out Jun's poetic side!]
I'm sure we would've ended up the same even if it weren't for this resort. Things might've gone a bit differently, but I won't give this place all the credit. Or even much of any credit.
[He swings their hands lightly, his smile warm and thoughtful. He doesn't know how long it would have taken them to get together like this at home. They had their careers to focus on, and he hadn't been sure if Jun felt the same way as him. But it would've happened eventually. Right? They'll never know now, but it's what he'll choose to believe.]
I guess it sounds almost like fate when I put it that way. Which isn't a concept I've ever put much store in, but perhaps being with Jun-kun has broadened my outlook somewhat ♪
[This time, it's him who strokes his thumb over Jun's palm, nuzzling closer to his face.]
Either way, I'm excited to start our new "gardening" journey. I'm sure all our flowers will bloom beautifully ♪
[ Or they could send you the fabled "I just had sex" cake! But this place sure does know how to ruin a mood.
He's not entirely sure on Hiyori's meaning, so he can only assume they are on the same page about dating. Before arriving here, Jun hadn't ever been on a date, so likewise, he had no idea how different things should be. Yet, it feels easy, like pieces effortlessly fitting together, and perhaps it's not starkly different from their routines together back home. Instead, they can kiss, hold hands and do other things.
So, he doesn't consider such metaphors cheesy, but maybe they don't come as effortlessly to him as they do to Hiyori. Still, he's been putting in the effort, and occasionally, Jun does find himself expressing poetic words. Really, he's committed to improving himself each and every day. ]
Yeah, don't wanna think 'bout the coulda beens. But all the credit should go to us, 'cause we're the one's figurin' it out, not this place.
[ He allows Hiyori to swing their hands together, and his smile just as warm and bright. Back home, things probably might have gone differently, but eventually they would have gotten there. If only Jun hadn't persisted in denying those feelings stirring within his heart, which other idols seemed to pick up on. However, that's all in the past now; their feelings align, and it's all thanks to both of them. ]
I dunno much 'bout fate either, but turns out both our outlooks've turned out that way.
[ And maybe he should've accepted his fate sooner, but the thought of admitting his long-denied feelings feels embarrassing. How would that have impacted their working relationship? Jun wouldn't have wanted any awkwardness between them, especially when it might have been obvious to their fans.
He leans in a little closer, watching how Hiyori nuzzles into him. ]
And I'm not gonna lie, I've still gotta lot to learn 'bout this kinda relationship journey, Ohii-san. I'm real excited 'bout this, so can't wait to see how we'll grow from here ♪
[He'd take that over a giant penis cake from Great Tit, anyway.
There's not a lot left to say. They're going on a journey together, and they're both excited to do it! Though Jun calling it a "relationship journey" gives him another small flutter. They've been dancing around the truth for the past month or so; he didn't call the flower maze excursion a "date," didn't tell Jun he wanted to be a couple, didn't confess his love. But now that words like "date" and "relationship" are being used, there's absolutely no room for doubt, and that feels comforting. Comforting and yet simultaneously thrilling.
He and Jun really are lovers now. In addition to being partners, that's what they are now. As of today, it's official. What absolutely wonderful weather.]
Mm! ♪
[He hums happily, feeling a little burst of excitement.]
[ That's what this is, isn't it? He wants to leave no room for doubt, making certain his feelings come across loud and clear, just as they did the other time. Except this time, he's been mulling over those feelings more and more, deciding now is the perfect opportunity to express them in person nonetheless. They have been dancing around the topic for long enough, even if they haven't explicitly spoken about what happened in full. But is it wrong of him to want this before they've been on another date? And a date he knows 100% is one? All Jun can do is take the shot, and if this isn't something Hiyori wants, then he'll say so.
But he hasn't, which has his heart soaring. That's it, isn't it? Now, it's official. He and Hiyori are together! ]
'Course it's a few days away, but promise we'll go soon as we know ♪ But I mean, if you wanna go on other "dates" before then, how am I gonna complain? We'll go on plenty of dates, alright~? Goin' places with you sure sounds like a good time.
[Jun took his shot and it landed. A straight bulls-eye, piercing right through Hiyori's heart!
And all he can do is grin with every new word. "Goin' places with you sure sounds like a good time," Jun says, even though at home, he might have said it sounds like a pain! But then Hiyori is asking him to come along as more than just a bag-carrier this time. And wasn't at least part of that whole "you're my servant!" shtick just an excuse to spend time with Jun, anyway? That's not to say he won't ever ask Jun to carry something for him again, because he definitely will, but it seems those pretenses aren't needed anymore.]
Yep, I said it, so that's how things will be! ♪
[He chirps his agreement. And he could just leave it there. But...
There's one more thing he wants to say. And he draws back a little to say it, just enough to give Jun a full view of his face.]
We can go on as many dates as we want. And you're also free to come to my room and hold me as much as you want. Those are the new rules ♪
["Hold him." That's the wording he chooses. But he's not just talking about chaste hugging. Surely Jun knows it, even though he tries to sound casual.]
[ It took courage—the sort of courage he never thought he'd muster.
Normally, he would complain and say it was nothing but a big pain to be delegated as the bag carrier! But this time, something has shifted, knowing it may not be that much anymore. And, in the first place, didn't Jun always agree to carry bags despite complaining? Either way, the shift proves to be a good thing!
His heart still tugs at the words, the chirp of agreement and does a flip as Hiyori draws back, saying he wants to be held as a "new rule." Well, how can Jun refuse? And there's a realisation of what "hold him" means, with his bottom lip curling into a smile, nodding with a quick response. ]
Ohii-san wants to be held, huh~? Maybe I'll think 'bout it ♪
[ He jokes, taking a deep breath in. ]
Honestly, I was kinda hoping you'd say that, 'cause it seems like we want the same thing ♪ But if I'm gonna live by any of Ohii-san's seriously annoying rules, it'll be the one where I'll be holding you real close and tight.
[Thankfully he knows better than to take that seriously. And Jun cops to his true feelings a second later, anyway. Hiyori can't stay mad at him (can't even get mad at him in the first place), not when he's still overjoyed at how things have turned out between them.]
Well, good! ♪ You have strong arms from all that weight-lifting, so you might as well put them to good use! And "holding me tight" is right up there with "carrying my bags" on the usefulness scale.
[Or carrying him off to bed.
... they're still talking in euphemisms a little bit. Hiyori would never use it, but "hold" could've easily been substituted with another four-letter word. Which, well, are they on the same page regarding that? Does Jun want to take that role with him, and does he know he just got the okay for it?
Hiyori won't start fretting over that, though. Now isn't the time. And also, of course Jun would want to. Why wouldn't he? His partner is the beautiful Hiyori Tomoe! And on the off-off-chance Jun didn't want to, they'd work something else out.]
You can even practice right now! Why don't you come here? ♪
[He steps back, spreading his arms wide open. For all his thoughts about doing other stuff, he likes a good hug, too! ... If he sounded a little like he was beckoning a dog just now, oh well. That's just a habit from talking to Mary!]
[ Good thing Hiyori knows better, leaving a happy hum to follow after he's done expressing how he'd really want to hold Hiyori. Whatever has spun on their axis for this to happen, he's going to thank whoever made it possible. ]
Says you ♪ I'm already putting 'em to good use, I tried tellin' you before! But it looks to me like I can use 'em for your "usefulness scale."
[ Whatever the heck that means! But having these muscles is useful for carrying Hiyori off to bed; what other person would, to begin with?
Even with them dancing around, speaking in euphemisms rather from outrightly saying what they want to say, he thinks he's following. ... not as if he'd be willing to say outloud loud just what he wants. They must be on the same page, wanting the same thing, but it's a big step. (Unlikely, he's realised right this second, it could hit him later.)
He glances up, his gaze drawn to Hiyori's open arms, waiting for him. It's a strange shift, from staunchly refusing his hugs to now craving them, though Jun's yet to fully understand why. The beckoning hardly bothers him, only envoking memories of their week spent together. Without a word, he steps forward, being enveloped in Hiyori's embrace, resting his head against him, and allowing a smile to spread across his face. ]
.. you're warm, Ohii-san. It's really like bein' basked in sunlight.
[ He murmurs softly, his hands caressing Hiyori's back, pulling him into a tighter embrace. ]
[If they ever need help communicating, surely Rinne could assist them in using clearer language. "Just tell Sazanamin that ya want him to fuck ya stupid! Kyahaha!" <--- That's probably what he'd say.
But, you know, he does want more than that. If all he wanted from Jun was his body like a certain SOMEONE here then things wouldn't be so fraught. They'd collect each other's cards and move on with their lives. But the spoiled Hiyori Tomoe is much too greedy for that, and he decided long ago that he wants everything from Jun: Jun's loyalty and Jun's voice, Jun's body and future and heart. And of course, his love. Hiyori got all that and more, it seems, which might just make him the luckiest person in this casino.
He feels Jun walk into his waiting arms, tuck his head next to his. It's solid and warm, a sweet moment of intimacy and comfort in a place that's trying to deny them both those things. "When you feel anxious, there's nothing like letting someone hold you tight while you listen to the sound of their heartbeat," he'd said to Jun once. And it must have been true, since all his anxieties feel very far away at the moment. It's dangerous to let one's guard down in this place, but...
With Jun, it should be alright.
He wraps his arms loosely around Jun's shoulders and laughs at Jun's words, soft and pleased.]
Mm, yep. That's exactly what my love feels like ♪
[Butterflies form in his stomach. Unlike his usual "Work hard if you want to earn my love" comments, this is a more serious usage of the L-word. But it felt right to say it.]
[ Time for them to get their act together so Rinne-senpai's boisterous kyahaha's won't ruin the moment!
There are plenty of reasons why this could have ended with them collecting their cards and moving on. But, as expected, Jun would never want things to end there. Never wanting a single thing from Hiyori, only to stay by his side. If their passion for one another ended with the first time, the "Springtime" game, then it wasn't meant to be. Part of Jun did think he was delusional after the game ended, wondering if he imagined it all or if he was imagining just how much closer they'd gotten. The maze changed his mind about their feelings for one another, realising they weren't fleeting but real.
He keeps his head nestled against Hiyori's, ready for their heartbeats to become one. Here he can feel the rise and fall of Hiyori's chest, and the reminder of when Hiyori had said those words sinks in. How can they not be true? Any previous worry has long vanished, being replaced by an ever-comforting warmth. And with the sound of Hiyori's laugh, it's as if the sun itself is shining brighter, casting away any dark, lingering shadows.
Love, words spoken numerous of times before. In fact, there are plenty of times where he's teased Jun and plenty of times where he hasn't. But the seriousness sinks in, heart strumming loudly as if it might jump out, the pattering of Hiyori's loud against his ears. As it turns out, Hiyori's love has been the one thing holding him together from the moment they crossed paths up until now.
So this is Ohii-san's love. The warmth he's felt all this time. ]
Actually, the more I think 'bout your love, the more it makes sense. And it makes me wanna feel Ohii-san's love forever ♪
[ He wants it—to accept the love offered to him and return the same tenfold. ]
Who'd have thought your love was the one thing keeping me warm? Even now, I'm hoping you'll feel it, too. My "love"!
The warm feeling that's come over him now. The emotion that's gripped his heart these past two years. The thing that's overwhelmed him to the point of hugging his pillow alone in his room. That's the word for it.
He's been thinking about "love" more often recently. Love is what's missing from this place, he told Leo. "There's no one better at giving or receiving love," he told someone else here. He's been turning over the lyrics to his second solo in his free time, something he was working on at home that got put on the backburner so they could practice for SS. That song is about love, of course. The warm and all-accepting love he means to shower his fans with. But his love isn't just reserved for them, for Eden or his family.
It makes his stomach squirm a little, putting himself out there like that. But at this point he doesn't fear rejection. And sure enough, that's not at all what Jun gives him. He's silent for a moment, just taking in his partner's wonderful words, his breath stuck somewhere in his throat.]
Mm...
[But he finds his voice eventually. Still hugging Jun back, he confirms,]
I can feel it.
[Because he really can. It makes his voice unsteady and his knees weak, but he can; the boy he picked up like a stray dog two years ago really did come to love him. How miraculous is that?]
And since forever is what we promised, that's exactly what I'll give you.
[ Slowly, but surely, Jun's been showing more of his heart over the years. The feeling of loving someone—with the someone being Hiyori—hasn't been easy; it's been easier to ignore back home, where their jobs as idols take up all their free time. But love turned Jun around, making him into the idol he is today. Love helped mend his heart and his anger and gave him a purpose beyond being the Non-special, worthless, dirty, stray he used to be.
When Rinne-senpai returned, he began clearly expressing his feelings for Hiyori at the table. Over time, Jun's come to accept that his feelings for Hiyori were indeed love, which he now intends to embrace. And when he confided in Topaz about his feelings, she helped him realise this environment wasn't the source of them. And they'd always been there—something Jun knew from the beginning. He began talking about feelings with Topaz, who helped him understand that this place wasn't making him feel that way.
While vulnerability hardly comes easily, he can be vulnerable with Hiyori, knowing he will be accepted and loved for all his feelings and more. ]
You can? That's.. that's good, Ohii-san.
[ Despite his deep love for Hiyori, his fear of rejection held him back from confessing his feelings—until now. Love can be a daunting and all-consuming feeling, making him hyper-aware of Hiyori's actions. Yet, after nearly three years, he knows him well and remains unfazed by his partners behaviour, even when there are reasons he should be.
But Hiyori can feel his love, and that's all that matters. ]
And that's what I'm giving you too, Ohii-san. Not just the promise, but my heart and love forever.
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And here it is: Jun's big shot! The one he seemed to be wanting to take but wasn't sure how. Who knew striking up a conversation with a stranger on the Network could motivate you enough to finally take the plunge? Little does he know that Hiyori stumbled upon his post, reading the words he had carefully crafted to prevent revealing too much information, but enough the person he was referring to may have noticed.
After a span of a few weeks, several events have unfolded, namely Rinne-senpai's return, presenting an ideal moment to seize. Now, it becomes imperative for him to reassert his intentions, mostly for this to be a date remains crystal clear. He may not be pouring out how he feels right away, but progress is being made. Slowly, one step at a time, maybe marking the initial stride towards the path of romance.
Even if Hiyori is giving him the teasing look, he can't help but smile, The happiness and seeing how happy his partner is have him realising—maybe he should've done this sooner. ]
Yeah, that's why I'm here, askin' ♪ Soon as Weiss-san told me 'bout it, actually... Which is pretty embarrassing to admit.
[ But perhaps it's not as bad as he initially thought! He senses this could be his opportunity to "take a shot," willingly admitting to embarrassing details. By doing so, he's subtly signalling to Hiyori that he's interested in him, which might mitigate any embarrassment he feels. ]
Really~? Well, I'm really glad you'd wanna with someone like me. It means a lot hearin' something like that from you, Ohii-san.
[ It seems they are on the same page, which is wonderfully brilliant. Asking took courage, and he's teasing a little, but he does mean that. Jun's heart continues its rapid beats, witnessing the giddiness from his partner fills him with an indescribable warmth. ]
Either way, we're gonna have fun! I'm really looking forward to going with you.
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Right now, however, he's fine. He's had time to process that Network thread, alongside all their other interactions and everything else that's transpired. He knows how Jun feels (he thinks, mostly!) and he knows how to respond.
Though honestly, he does still feel a little overwhelmed, in that giddy sort of way. Jun said he wanted to ask him as soon as he heard about it! When Jun hears the word "date," his mind jumps straight to him, apparently! As it should, of course, but it's still a nice thing to hear.]
Me too ♪
[He agrees readily, no take-backs and no teasing. He'll even add,]
A recital, a fancy get-together, and a date with Jun-kun sounds like the perfect evening to me.
[Confirming their feelings are the same. Though, before Jun can respond to that, he continues excitedly:]
Don't hesitate to ask me if you have questions about how to conduct yourself, alright? I'll teach you everything there is to know about etiquette! Though I am curious what the theme will be, since that'll influence what I choose to wear! Or what we choose to wear, rather, since we both ought to look our utmost best ♪
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Maybe all he needed was a gentle push; he had been noticing the little things his partner did, which were beginning to make a real difference in Jun's day-to-day life. Even though it wasn't easy for him to understand, Hiyori seemed to be acting just like his usual self, but Jun no longer feels "scared" about admitting he wants a proper date. (But when he finds out that all those other times were dates as well, he is going to be very embarrassed.)
At home or out in this world, there's just no one else who he'd want to invite. Like a secret that both know but haven't dared to say out loud—those fluttery feelings, that spark of possibility. And now, with Hiyori's confirmation, it's like a fizzy burst of excitement bubbling up inside Jun. It's funny how sometimes life throws you something good, making you feel like a giddy school kid with a secret crush, even when you thought you'd never have those feelings. ]
And sure, Ohii-san. I don't really know the proper word you used, so if wanna teach me how to "conduct" myself, I'd be really grateful. The only fancy parties I've bothered with are the ones for CosPro, but those're just "business," or whatever Ibara said. Well, I guess something fancy for the recital, 'cause it's gonna be a performance? That's just my guess ♪ Weiss-san said the party will be at someone's place, but I was going to say they've probably got a real big space.
[ He's excitedly prattling off all the information he knows, as being the first to know something is exciting. Who would know the theme for the party would be "beach," but buying two outfits should be fine for the future, as they aren't hurting for chips these days. ]
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Though he does realize Jun probably didn't see it as one, at least not at the time of invitation. Even he hadn't been sure how "date-like" it would turn out. But things played out rather romantically, with kisses and hand-holding, and they had a lovely time besides. Which means it was definitely a date! That's his conclusion, anyway.
Still, this is special. This one Jun does see as a date, and he's the one who asked! Not to mention it's rather more formal. Less chance of finding lube in treasure chests, more chance of eating finger food and wowing their fellow guests in elegant formalwear. Fortunately he's comfortable in such environments, and all too happy to guide Jun through them.]
Do you have anything that qualifies? I wasn't sure if you kept whatever you woke up in, but I assume that was "fancy."
[He, admittedly, kept most of the ex-fine-esque outfit, but it isn't in good shape. It's all folded up and wrinkled in a drawer somewhere. He doesn't want to wear that thing! It's just there in case of some all-his-other-clothes-are-in-the-wash emergency. Pieces of it could be worn separately without reminding him of ex-fine too much, at least. But he wouldn't want to wear the whole ensemble, and he didn't keep parts like the wedding veil or the gloves. Those got left behind on the floor of the wedding suite and presumably swept up by staff.
Fortunately, he has other clothes including formal attire. He just isn't sure if Jun does since Jun mostly wears comfortable clothes. But if not:]
If not, we'll just have to shop! But as far as the recital goes, I'm sure you know how to sit quietly and applaud. Then at the party, well... I guess that depends on the setup? If there's no dinner table, then there's not much to talk about in terms of table manners. And this place is a mix of different cultures, so you might be expected to shake hands when meeting new people rather than bowing. This will probably just be a case of "see what other people are doing and try to copy that."
But in general, my advice would be to keep your chin up, smile, and keep the conversation topics pleasant. I'm sure you'll do fine. You learn well, you've opened up a lot this past year, and you'll have me with you!
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Really, he struggles to find the right words to describe it. Perhaps it's because every outing since the maze has felt different, or maybe it's just being around Hiyori that changes everything. Ever since the Springtime event, everything has felt off-kilter, though he has been hesitant to pinpoint exactly what's changed. It's all been a bit of a puzzle, but he's slowly starting to unravel those emotions—perhaps not the love aspect just yet, but certainly other facets.
But here's the kicker—finding out you've caught feelings for someone in a setting like this? It's like a plot twist in a heart-wrenching drama. Mustering the courage to ask someone out because you've suddenly clocked that you're head over heels for them, after two whole years? Feels like life's playing a cruel joke on you. And realising that back home, you wouldn't have even entertained the idea? Now that's a tough pill to swallow.
But maybe it's just cruel fate that he's yearning for this with Hiyori. So, if he has to, he'll let his partner take the lead in situations where he's not too comfortable (such as parties!) and whatever else comes their way.
And now Hiyori has reminded him about the "welcome suit." ]
Yeah, the suit I woke up in's still in my room somewhere! No idea if the suit's in any shape to wear, though.
[ That suit has been tucked away in his packing cubes ever since he got here. He's not exactly sure when he'll bust it out again, but tossing those clothes just wasn't an option. The only hiccup? It's a wedding suit (or rather, it looks like the one from the 3rd anniversary), and after three months in a packing cube, the fabric's probably seen better days. But he's held onto everything else, so it'll all work out somehow. ]
And I don't really need suits like you do, so that's the only one I've got outta all my clothes here.
[ Comfortable clothes are easier to wear, that's all! A pair of jeans or pants that aren't stiff, a jacket, and a normal shirt. Those are all he ever needs! But as for button-up shirts? Nah, he'll take a hard pass on those. (He does enjoy Hiyori wearing them for multiple reasons..) ]
Sure, how 'bout I show you the state the suits in? We've gotta do our own washing down on the basement floors, and I dunno how to wash a suit. Maybe buying a new one'll be less hassle. And I know how to sit and applaud, so that'll be a piece of cake. Well, the party sounded pretty casual. But Weiss-san used the fancy word earlier, so I dunno what sorta environment it'll be. Handshakes'll be easy, 'cause we already do tons of those events!
[ No bowing, got it! Not as he usually does when meeting and introducing himself to someone for the first time! ]
And if I run into trouble, I'll just look to you for guidance, Ohii-san. And with you by my side, I'll know I'm giving my best effort ♪
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Hiyori can only speak for the second one, but suffice to say, it's been hard. Loving someone isn't easy; "too much energy" is what he'd said to Tsumugi that one time, and he wasn't wrong. Loving someone isn't all fluffy feelings and happiness. Loving someone, at least in this environment, means worrying himself sick and constantly fretting over whether that person will be alright. Always being on guard around others, his stomach churning at the thought that someone might try to "steal" his partner from him. It's exhausting, in other words.
But it's times like these that make it all seem worth it: seeing Jun smile and hearing him talk excitedly about their plans, after rushing right up to his room to ask him on a date. All his worries about the future and about their environment seem to dissipate into thin air. In moments like this, he can truly be happy. Something as simple as chatting about suits with Jun feels both refreshing and oddly exhilarating.]
Normally you'd just take it to a dry cleaner's. With 90-something floors, there's bound to be one of those around somewhere. Though I'm not sure wearing a full suit is necessary. Just a dress shirt and slacks should do, unless there's a formal dress code. Though I am curious to know what your so-called wedding outfit looked like.
[The last bit said with a teasing smile. A wedding outfit might be a bit much for a rehearsal—especially one where Jun's not even the performer. And it's certainly not like Hiyori wants to show off his "wedding outfit." But the thought of seeing Jun in wedding clothes is, well... it's exciting! Now more than ever! (Though he does still remember Jun's outfit from the Bridal Field Trip...)
And then his smile becomes more pronounced when Jun says that last line. He's smiling so hard his face hurts, really. This is what you call excellent weather.]
Doing your best for my sake, hmm? That's good, I like that! My offer from SS last year still stands, of course. Just take my hand, and I'll guide you step-by-step through the world of nobility ♪ I'm sure that one day, you'll look perfectly respectable standing at my side. Like a perfect gentleman... ♪
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Even though it may sound self-centered, Jun's conviction lies in the belief that no one could ever take his place. But acknowledging the thought is something he'll keep guarded, unwilling to entertain the possibility of being replaced by someone else. But in these moments, he senses that Hiyori shares the same sentiment, even if neither has voiced it or broached the subject directly. Jun feels like he's gradually understanding, admitting it to himself, yet navigating these uncharted emotions cautiously, wanting to untangle them before fully confessing, with no room for takebacks. ]
Yeah, dry cleaners? With my rank, I seriously doubt I'll get the suit back anytime soon. Plus, all those floors're gonna make my head spin! The shirt and pants should be fine, like you said, 'cause going too overdressed might look like I'm trying too hard. But if you wanna see me in the entire thing, how 'bout I show you sometime?
[ He doesn't really mind donning the full suit again, even if Hiyori's teasing him for it. However, wearing the whole ensemble might seem a tad too formal for the occasion! Plus, he wouldn't want to steal the spotlight from Weiss's big performance, so a dress shirt and pants suit him just fine. Though he can't help but wonder what Hiyori's "wedding outfit" looked like or if he even still has it, either way, he's seen his partner pull off plenty of suits before.
Instead, he reaches out, gently intertwining his fingers with Hiyori's, giving their hands a tender squeeze. In that moment, he doesn't feel the need to ask for anything, sensing that perhaps they've moved beyond the stage of asking and into a deeper understanding.
And his own cheeks ache from the constant smile plastered on his face, but he knows it's a small price to pay for being in the presence of someone who brings you such joy. ]
You probably didn't mean literally, but I'd like to take your hand anyway. And that's a pretty good motivator, Ohii-san. How'd I ever refuse something like that? One day, I'm gonna get there, surprise myself and maaaybe even you ♪
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Well, never mind the worthless rank system, or his request. He gets distracted by the thought of Jun modeling the so-called wedding outfit for him! Hiyori replies straightaway, seeming enthused.]
Sounds great! I may even take pictures. That'd be a charming photoshoot, and a lovely addition to my camera roll ♪
[More charming than those suit tattoo photos they took. That's for sure.
He gets to thinking about his own "wedding suit" next. Of course he disliked his own, but maybe he could try on something similar for Jun, for a proper exchange. Before he can make this all about himself and his love of dress-up, though, Jun grasps his hands, and that simple gesture grinds all his conscious thoughts to a halt.
Goodness knows they've touched hands before. Plenty of times onstage, for starters. But here, alone in his room, after the conversation where Jun asked him out on a "date," the gesture leaves quite the impact. Hiyori's eyes flare a bit, his reddened cheeks aching for a different reason than Jun's. It really isn't fair, how precious little effort it takes for Jun to make his heart race.
... though is this low-effort on Jun's part? It seems to him like Jun's been putting himself out there, making an effort to connect to him and communicate his feelings properly. It's more than Hiyori ever could've expected from the boy who spoke so little when they first met. The one who'd been beaten into silence by his time as a "Non-Special Student." That's the very same boy who's holding his hands right now, saying he wants to stand at his side like a perfect gentleman one day. Jun-kun really bloomed beautifully under his tutelage.
He'll be even more beautiful in the future, surely. Someone well and truly worthy of standing at his side, in other words.]
It'll take a lot of effort to surprise me. ... or so I'd like to say, but I know you can do it.
[He squeezes Jun's hands back. A lightly-flushed, but pleased expression on his face.]
You always find ways to surprise me. It's been like that ever since I first picked you up. So I look forward to seeing what surprises Jun-kun has in store for the future.
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But what could the thing Hiyori's trying to install be? It's a shame it wasn't here already... Either way, he's happy to model more clothing for Hiyori. It's not anything he's really ashamed of, just more so how it happened, but it's fine now! It wasn't a real marriage, even though it was cleared up long ago. ]
Mmm, yeah ♪ If you wanna take pics, I'm not gonna stop you. But they'll be for your eyes only, Ohii-san.
[ Not that he cares much if other people see them, he'll be wearing the suit for Hiyori. The last time they took photos was for the suit tattoos, which feels like months ago now. He can't complain much about how quickly time has passed; so many positive things have happened since they arrived here. And if Hiyori is interested in trying on an outfit as well, that is just another option for them to consider.
Opening up like this isn't a walk in the park for Jun. He's just started warming up to the idea of having feelings for someone, let alone summoning the courage to act on them. Despite the challenge, his smile reveals his determination to express himself clearly. Moments like these push him to ensure there's no room for misunderstandings. It's been confusing to convey those feelings here and easier to ignore them back home, but ultimately, those feelings for Hiyori have always been there.
It's hard to say what's going on in Hiyori's mind, but his actions show gratitude. They've been in sync since the Springtime Event, and now Jun's showing how much he values their relationship. Keeping up with Hiyori has been a challenge, but he can sense how much progress he's made since they first crossed paths. ]
'Course I know you don't surprise easily, but doesn't mean I'm not gonna bother. You'll just hafta keep watching to see ♪
[ His own cheeks are flushed, but it feels as if a mass has been lifted from his shoulders. ]
So I'm gonna give it all I've got! Doing stuff like working hard to surprise you will keep coming, Ohii-san. Everything else'll fall right into place.
[ Just as this has, he doesn't want anything to change. ]
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... it's also right there in the box that's propped up behind the couch. But if Jun asked what was in that, well, that would mess up continuity, since he still doesn't know what it is by the time they have their network thread the next day. So for now, Jun will just have to remain unaware that Hiyori is hanging a canopy over his bed. Something like this, except with some lights added. All so he can sleep and fuck his boyfriend in peace, without worrying about the House spying on him with hidden cameras! When he said he wouldn't mind being filmed 24 hours a day, that was not an invitation to the House!!
Er, but anyway.
There's not a whole lot left to say. They're on the same page, and he's sure what's in their heart is one and the same. He hasn't always been sure of that, but he's certain of it right now. And he knows a romantic mood has formed, just like it did in the flower maze when Jun said the carnation looked beautiful on him. So, having twined their hands, he brings their foreheads together next.]
Mm ♪
[He hums happily, before leaning in to peck Jun on the lips: soft and chaste, but still heartfelt. In the aftermath, he smiles fondly.]
I've got lots of surprises up my sleeve, too, of course. So you'd better prepare yourself ♪
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.... though, picturing Hiyori drilling a hook in the ceiling might be the most amusing thought. Good thing he hasn't noticed the box, nor will he, not until it's finally set up! More than likely, if Jun knew, he'd probably offer to hang it himself. But the canopy will offer a lot more privacy, so they can do whatever they'd like without the House watching their every move.
It has been confusing getting to this point, but they're very clearly on the same page, and Jun couldn't be happier. Resting their foreheads together, each time Hiyori kisses him, it's as if his breath catches within his throat.
He returns the hum, adding a peck of his own, rubbing his thumb across Hiyori's palm. ]
You do, huh~? Looks like I'll hafta start seriously preparing myself for real ♪ Doubt you'll go dropping any hints, so I gotta be patient. Doing stuff like this has me real excited, didja know? More specially, 'bout goin' on this journey with you.
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But if the staff member never shows up, he could always have Jun do it. Or Rinne now that Rinne's back. He owes Hiyori for making him worry!
For future reference, though, we'll assume they did show up, and that the canopy is prepared by the time Jun takes refuge in his room away from crawlers and chemical spills. All's well that ends well.
It's silly that even a peck from Jun is enough to make his heart soar. Or that Jun's thumb sliding across his palm stirs so much warmth in his chest. But that's the magic of love, he's finding out: even the littlest things feel special and wonderful!
And is there anything "little" about this? He can't picture the old Jun-kun pecking his lips sweetly and talking so poetically. His phrasing causes Hiyori's eyebrows to lift.]
A journey, hmm? ♪ That's a lovely way of putting it.
[His eyes fall shut. Sometimes it really does feel like he's dreaming. The whole place feels unreal, in good ways and (many, many) bad ways. But he feels positive his relationship with Jun isn't some fleeting dream, but his new reality. Their new reality. A journey they're embarking on together!]
I'm not sure I've ever been on the sort of journey you're talking about. But now, I simply can't wait ♪ I'm sure the "grand surprise" that lies in store for us will be absolutely astonishing. And perhaps we'll even find some hidden treasure chests along the way! ♪
[Then he blinks his eyes open.]
—Ah, not the ones the House left. I meant other treasures. The kind we plant and uncover ourselves! I don't want to give them too much credit.
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Besides, he's trying to figure out those feelings. Sure, he's aware of just how difficult it is to express yourself, but being here with Hiyori now has taught him many wonderful things. Perhaps things he might not have learned for a long time, especially if they were back home, but without reason, he's learning just what it feels like to have intense, deep feelings. Instead of denying them!
Which includes all the new phrasing he's been working on. Not only to help express how he feels better but to show Hiyori how much effort he's going to. See, he has been paying attention! ]
Mmm, yeah! I've been learnin' new things ♪ And paying attention to stuff 'round here.
[ He smiles again, taking a deep breath before exhaling. Right now, it feels as if he's in the happiest place on Earth, which would be true if they weren't stuck here. But there are only positive feelings when he thinks about Hiyori, what their future means together and whatever comes from it once they return. ]
Well, bein' honest, I've never been on one myself! Looks like we're gonna work out the kinks together ♪ Yeah, I'm really looking forward to going through this with you, Ohii-san. It might be bumpy, but I know we got it!
[ He squeezes their hands again. ]
Yeah, didn't think you'd wanna give them any credit. We've done it so far without their help, so don't think we're gonna start anytime soon. So, it'll be sorta like a garden, won't it? We're gonna watch ourselves grow every day!
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Hiyori's heart squeezes in time with Jun squeezing his hand. When he said he'd never been on this sort of journey before, he meant that he'd never dated someone. Not with any degree of seriousness, anyway. This whole "being in love" thing is new to him. But it's the same for Jun, and they'll just have to figure it out together! They've been doing well so far, anyway. Maybe this is a cage where they can't spread their wings fully, but when he's with Jun-kun, his heart soars and takes flight!
In other words, Jun isn't alone in the cheesy-metaphors-for-their-relationship department. It seems they both have plenty of those up their sleeve. And didn't Jun once compare him to a ray of sunshine who can make "even a dirty stray dog like him" sparkle and shine? Perhaps their relationship has always brought out Jun's poetic side!]
I'm sure we would've ended up the same even if it weren't for this resort. Things might've gone a bit differently, but I won't give this place all the credit. Or even much of any credit.
[He swings their hands lightly, his smile warm and thoughtful. He doesn't know how long it would have taken them to get together like this at home. They had their careers to focus on, and he hadn't been sure if Jun felt the same way as him. But it would've happened eventually. Right? They'll never know now, but it's what he'll choose to believe.]
I guess it sounds almost like fate when I put it that way. Which isn't a concept I've ever put much store in, but perhaps being with Jun-kun has broadened my outlook somewhat ♪
[This time, it's him who strokes his thumb over Jun's palm, nuzzling closer to his face.]
Either way, I'm excited to start our new "gardening" journey. I'm sure all our flowers will bloom beautifully ♪
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He's not entirely sure on Hiyori's meaning, so he can only assume they are on the same page about dating. Before arriving here, Jun hadn't ever been on a date, so likewise, he had no idea how different things should be. Yet, it feels easy, like pieces effortlessly fitting together, and perhaps it's not starkly different from their routines together back home. Instead, they can kiss, hold hands and do other things.
So, he doesn't consider such metaphors cheesy, but maybe they don't come as effortlessly to him as they do to Hiyori. Still, he's been putting in the effort, and occasionally, Jun does find himself expressing poetic words. Really, he's committed to improving himself each and every day. ]
Yeah, don't wanna think 'bout the coulda beens. But all the credit should go to us, 'cause we're the one's figurin' it out, not this place.
[ He allows Hiyori to swing their hands together, and his smile just as warm and bright. Back home, things probably might have gone differently, but eventually they would have gotten there. If only Jun hadn't persisted in denying those feelings stirring within his heart, which other idols seemed to pick up on. However, that's all in the past now; their feelings align, and it's all thanks to both of them. ]
I dunno much 'bout fate either, but turns out both our outlooks've turned out that way.
[ And maybe he should've accepted his fate sooner, but the thought of admitting his long-denied feelings feels embarrassing. How would that have impacted their working relationship? Jun wouldn't have wanted any awkwardness between them, especially when it might have been obvious to their fans.
He leans in a little closer, watching how Hiyori nuzzles into him. ]
And I'm not gonna lie, I've still gotta lot to learn 'bout this kinda relationship journey, Ohii-san. I'm real excited 'bout this, so can't wait to see how we'll grow from here ♪
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There's not a lot left to say. They're going on a journey together, and they're both excited to do it! Though Jun calling it a "relationship journey" gives him another small flutter. They've been dancing around the truth for the past month or so; he didn't call the flower maze excursion a "date," didn't tell Jun he wanted to be a couple, didn't confess his love. But now that words like "date" and "relationship" are being used, there's absolutely no room for doubt, and that feels comforting. Comforting and yet simultaneously thrilling.
He and Jun really are lovers now. In addition to being partners, that's what they are now. As of today, it's official. What absolutely wonderful weather.]
Mm! ♪
[He hums happily, feeling a little burst of excitement.]
And the next stop on our journey is that soirée! Or the recital first, and then the soirée! So as soon we know the theme, we'll have to go on a shopping trip. If we swing by a café afterwards, you might even be able to call it a "date"! And you can never have too many dates, I say. Or at least I can't, when my partner is Jun-kun.
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But he hasn't, which has his heart soaring. That's it, isn't it? Now, it's official. He and Hiyori are together! ]
'Course it's a few days away, but promise we'll go soon as we know ♪ But I mean, if you wanna go on other "dates" before then, how am I gonna complain? We'll go on plenty of dates, alright~? Goin' places with you sure sounds like a good time.
[ The best time, if he's being truly honest. ]
So that'll be how it is from now on ♪
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And all he can do is grin with every new word. "Goin' places with you sure sounds like a good time," Jun says, even though at home, he might have said it sounds like a pain! But then Hiyori is asking him to come along as more than just a bag-carrier this time. And wasn't at least part of that whole "you're my servant!" shtick just an excuse to spend time with Jun, anyway? That's not to say he won't ever ask Jun to carry something for him again, because he definitely will, but it seems those pretenses aren't needed anymore.]
Yep, I said it, so that's how things will be! ♪
[He chirps his agreement. And he could just leave it there. But...
There's one more thing he wants to say. And he draws back a little to say it, just enough to give Jun a full view of his face.]
We can go on as many dates as we want. And you're also free to come to my room and hold me as much as you want. Those are the new rules ♪
["Hold him." That's the wording he chooses. But he's not just talking about chaste hugging. Surely Jun knows it, even though he tries to sound casual.]
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Normally, he would complain and say it was nothing but a big pain to be delegated as the bag carrier! But this time, something has shifted, knowing it may not be that much anymore. And, in the first place, didn't Jun always agree to carry bags despite complaining? Either way, the shift proves to be a good thing!
His heart still tugs at the words, the chirp of agreement and does a flip as Hiyori draws back, saying he wants to be held as a "new rule." Well, how can Jun refuse? And there's a realisation of what "hold him" means, with his bottom lip curling into a smile, nodding with a quick response. ]
Ohii-san wants to be held, huh~? Maybe I'll think 'bout it ♪
[ He jokes, taking a deep breath in. ]
Honestly, I was kinda hoping you'd say that, 'cause it seems like we want the same thing ♪ But if I'm gonna live by any of Ohii-san's seriously annoying rules, it'll be the one where I'll be holding you real close and tight.
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[Thankfully he knows better than to take that seriously. And Jun cops to his true feelings a second later, anyway. Hiyori can't stay mad at him (can't even get mad at him in the first place), not when he's still overjoyed at how things have turned out between them.]
Well, good! ♪ You have strong arms from all that weight-lifting, so you might as well put them to good use! And "holding me tight" is right up there with "carrying my bags" on the usefulness scale.
[Or carrying him off to bed.
... they're still talking in euphemisms a little bit. Hiyori would never use it, but "hold" could've easily been substituted with another four-letter word. Which, well, are they on the same page regarding that? Does Jun want to take that role with him, and does he know he just got the okay for it?
Hiyori won't start fretting over that, though. Now isn't the time. And also, of course Jun would want to. Why wouldn't he? His partner is the beautiful Hiyori Tomoe! And on the off-off-chance Jun didn't want to, they'd work something else out.]
You can even practice right now! Why don't you come here? ♪
[He steps back, spreading his arms wide open. For all his thoughts about doing other stuff, he likes a good hug, too! ... If he sounded a little like he was beckoning a dog just now, oh well. That's just a habit from talking to Mary!]
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Says you ♪ I'm already putting 'em to good use, I tried tellin' you before! But it looks to me like I can use 'em for your "usefulness scale."
[ Whatever the heck that means! But having these muscles is useful for carrying Hiyori off to bed; what other person would, to begin with?
Even with them dancing around, speaking in euphemisms rather from outrightly saying what they want to say, he thinks he's following. ... not as if he'd be willing to say outloud loud just what he wants. They must be on the same page, wanting the same thing, but it's a big step. (Unlikely, he's realised right this second, it could hit him later.)
He glances up, his gaze drawn to Hiyori's open arms, waiting for him. It's a strange shift, from staunchly refusing his hugs to now craving them, though Jun's yet to fully understand why. The beckoning hardly bothers him, only envoking memories of their week spent together. Without a word, he steps forward, being enveloped in Hiyori's embrace, resting his head against him, and allowing a smile to spread across his face. ]
.. you're warm, Ohii-san. It's really like bein' basked in sunlight.
[ He murmurs softly, his hands caressing Hiyori's back, pulling him into a tighter embrace. ]
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But, you know, he does want more than that. If all he wanted from Jun was his body like a certain SOMEONE here then things wouldn't be so fraught. They'd collect each other's cards and move on with their lives. But the spoiled Hiyori Tomoe is much too greedy for that, and he decided long ago that he wants everything from Jun: Jun's loyalty and Jun's voice, Jun's body and future and heart. And of course, his love. Hiyori got all that and more, it seems, which might just make him the luckiest person in this casino.
He feels Jun walk into his waiting arms, tuck his head next to his. It's solid and warm, a sweet moment of intimacy and comfort in a place that's trying to deny them both those things. "When you feel anxious, there's nothing like letting someone hold you tight while you listen to the sound of their heartbeat," he'd said to Jun once. And it must have been true, since all his anxieties feel very far away at the moment. It's dangerous to let one's guard down in this place, but...
With Jun, it should be alright.
He wraps his arms loosely around Jun's shoulders and laughs at Jun's words, soft and pleased.]
Mm, yep. That's exactly what my love feels like ♪
[Butterflies form in his stomach. Unlike his usual "Work hard if you want to earn my love" comments, this is a more serious usage of the L-word. But it felt right to say it.]
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There are plenty of reasons why this could have ended with them collecting their cards and moving on. But, as expected, Jun would never want things to end there. Never wanting a single thing from Hiyori, only to stay by his side. If their passion for one another ended with the first time, the "Springtime" game, then it wasn't meant to be. Part of Jun did think he was delusional after the game ended, wondering if he imagined it all or if he was imagining just how much closer they'd gotten. The maze changed his mind about their feelings for one another, realising they weren't fleeting but real.
He keeps his head nestled against Hiyori's, ready for their heartbeats to become one. Here he can feel the rise and fall of Hiyori's chest, and the reminder of when Hiyori had said those words sinks in. How can they not be true? Any previous worry has long vanished, being replaced by an ever-comforting warmth. And with the sound of Hiyori's laugh, it's as if the sun itself is shining brighter, casting away any dark, lingering shadows.
Love, words spoken numerous of times before. In fact, there are plenty of times where he's teased Jun and plenty of times where he hasn't. But the seriousness sinks in, heart strumming loudly as if it might jump out, the pattering of Hiyori's loud against his ears. As it turns out, Hiyori's love has been the one thing holding him together from the moment they crossed paths up until now.
So this is Ohii-san's love. The warmth he's felt all this time. ]
Actually, the more I think 'bout your love, the more it makes sense. And it makes me wanna feel Ohii-san's love forever ♪
[ He wants it—to accept the love offered to him and return the same tenfold. ]
Who'd have thought your love was the one thing keeping me warm? Even now, I'm hoping you'll feel it, too. My "love"!
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The warm feeling that's come over him now. The emotion that's gripped his heart these past two years. The thing that's overwhelmed him to the point of hugging his pillow alone in his room. That's the word for it.
He's been thinking about "love" more often recently. Love is what's missing from this place, he told Leo. "There's no one better at giving or receiving love," he told someone else here. He's been turning over the lyrics to his second solo in his free time, something he was working on at home that got put on the backburner so they could practice for SS. That song is about love, of course. The warm and all-accepting love he means to shower his fans with. But his love isn't just reserved for them, for Eden or his family.
It makes his stomach squirm a little, putting himself out there like that. But at this point he doesn't fear rejection. And sure enough, that's not at all what Jun gives him. He's silent for a moment, just taking in his partner's wonderful words, his breath stuck somewhere in his throat.]
Mm...
[But he finds his voice eventually. Still hugging Jun back, he confirms,]
I can feel it.
[Because he really can. It makes his voice unsteady and his knees weak, but he can; the boy he picked up like a stray dog two years ago really did come to love him. How miraculous is that?]
And since forever is what we promised, that's exactly what I'll give you.
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When Rinne-senpai returned, he began clearly expressing his feelings for Hiyori at the table. Over time, Jun's come to accept that his feelings for Hiyori were indeed love, which he now intends to embrace. And when he confided in Topaz about his feelings, she helped him realise this environment wasn't the source of them. And they'd always been there—something Jun knew from the beginning. He began talking about feelings with Topaz, who helped him understand that this place wasn't making him feel that way.
While vulnerability hardly comes easily, he can be vulnerable with Hiyori, knowing he will be accepted and loved for all his feelings and more. ]
You can? That's.. that's good, Ohii-san.
[ Despite his deep love for Hiyori, his fear of rejection held him back from confessing his feelings—until now. Love can be a daunting and all-consuming feeling, making him hyper-aware of Hiyori's actions. Yet, after nearly three years, he knows him well and remains unfazed by his partners behaviour, even when there are reasons he should be.
But Hiyori can feel his love, and that's all that matters. ]
And that's what I'm giving you too, Ohii-san. Not just the promise, but my heart and love forever.
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time for a wrap I think!